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Monday, March 12, 2007

wanted to my do enjoy edu.
but seems that there's always something in my way to stop me from completing that bloody online assignment.
brrr.but that's not an excuse for sprouting vulgarities.
nor is it an excuse for procrastinating.
but nevermind.
was being super high on wuzun. i totally wanted to blog about how hawt he was and everything, cos it seems that now he's the only highlight left of my very pathetic life.
but that's superficial and redundant.so nvm again.

friendship is the only ship that never sinks.
something calvin chen said in the fahrenheit book i bought.
he's one of my least fav members, but that's not the point. cos what he wrote made alot of sense.
is it true? it sounds so...sincere. but then again. it made me suspect if that's true.
all good things come to an end.
probably not all friend-ships sink. but i'm sure that some will. like titanic did.
it's not about being pessimitic, but face it.
that's how life works. you can't hide in your own shell and pretend that this cold cruel world we're living in is nice colourful and warm.
self-decpetion has taught me that it will only lead to self-destruction.
not trying to be emotional. but i can't help it after reading some blogs.
some people stay happy 24/7 because they either:
1. rational - because being upset doesn't slove anything. it doesn't get you anywhere either.
2. numb - too numb from everything that they long forgotten how is it like to feel the pain
3. virtual - they simply live in a world of their own.

or maybe. some lucky minority are really free from troubles.

i guess i experience choice 1,2 and 3 not simultaneously but rather in a systematic way when i'm feeling happy.
sometimes, i think i'm pathetic. but before wallowing in self pity and all that crap, let's all thank god first that we're all born healthy and able-bodied.
this is getting so random.
i have no idea what i'm talking about as usual. but there're somethings i really need to let off my chest for a while.

and. suddenly. it seems that i'm the only one left blogging here.

Monday, March 05, 2007

THANKEW! and MWACKs to EVERYONE!

feel so LOVED today!
really wanna thank everyone for all their presents!
ping: for the really CUTE PINK OCTOPUS! i shall hug it everyday! ohhH! i decided to name it AH BU! after yanyalun!haha.your OU XIANG.
to HH, EUU and TUNNY, THANKS for the shirts and earrings. OMG. love them! the shirts RAWKED. thanks[: must have cost u guys a bomb right:D love you all to BITS!
crazy! thanks for the hourglass! i'll always remember your words[:
my VERY WHACKY team mates! omg. you guys always know me the best! TOTALLY LOVED the notebook! it was something i really really wanted to get! but it was so ex, i couldn't bear to buy it.HAHA. and the very sexy...EHEM. topshop under garment. HAHA. i knew something like that was coming my way
CEL. loved your note and the notebook! it meant the world:D really. WE SHOULD HAVE OUTINGS to camwhore! and pooh. haha. omg. how can u associate sexy with pooh?
Wanyan! for all the sweet stuff in the world. haha. make me spoil my diet luhh! *POUTS* :D
pixy! omg. sometimes, i wonder where u get your sources to finding presents. HAHA. tennis RAWKS.
charrr! YES. i shall put some HAWT WUZUN photo in there and DROOL at it everyday! LOL.

and to all those who wished me happy bday, online and in class, and everyone i missed out. THANKS[:
you've made this the best 16 bday ever.

Thursday, March 01, 2007

omg. i WAS suppose to be doing the stupid enjoy edu thingy. instead, i ended up talking to alot of people on MSN and now. i'm ACTUALLY BLOGGING. with the enjoy edu thingy still running. han lao shi is gonna wonder what took me so long to do a comprehension. 2HOURS. gosh. better hurry with the blogging.

i was talking to WEILING again just now! omg. we had such a random conversation. it was so funny. gosh, our conversations are always very amusing [or at least to me.]

tF / - ADORABLE DOG AHH <3> obviously our DEAR weiling.

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. - EH./STABS WEILING BACK! [有谁想和我去香格里拉吗?] -->obviously yours truely HERE.

_________

as the convo goes...

tF / says:
i realise that whenever i talk to you, something will happen

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
hurh?

tF / says:
that time was the timmy hung incident, yesterday was the yanyalun incident

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
wha. am i such a big jinx?
tF / says:
i wonder what will happen next *cues music*

tF / says:
HAHA

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
:xxx

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
LOL.

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
chey. i thought something rly bad.

tF / says:
HAHA eh it spoils my REPUTATION okay!

tF / says:
HAHA

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
LOL. dots lah!

tF / says:
my display picture rawks right

tF / says:
da dong looks like a porrrn star HAHA

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
OMG.

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
YUCK.

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
hahaha.

tF / says:
-.-

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
where do u get all these from!

tF / says:
COUGHS coughs COUGHS

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
i wanna go KOP all the CHUN ones

tF / says:
livejournal communities. koped and koped

tF / says:
: p

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
LOL.

tF / says:
so paiseh to all the creators :x

tF / says:
intellectual property

tF / says:
heh

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
omg. how can they make such NICE avatars outta such an EHEM person!

tF / says:
who is the EHEM AH?!

tF / says:
coughs by the way i supplied you with the DOG AVATAR!

tF / says:
you must kowtow me yess~~

tF / says:
hahaha

tF / says:
hey got to go~

tF / says:
dream of zun!

tF / says:
( :

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
HAHA.

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
ciao! thanekw thankew.

tF / says:
why must i share the same display picture as you? later people think i like wuzun also

tF / says:
when i actually like the DOG! AAAAAH

tF / says:
sobs spoil my reputation. see lah, 3rd time already

tF / says:
HAHAHA okay enough of my crap byeee~ <3

omg. basically. our whole convo was on farenheit [again. haha!] and we were argueing over two funny dadong and wuzun avatars. HAHAHA. i think we're so lame.
BUT i <33 YOU WEILING! haha. our feilunhai convos keeps me HIGH!
haha.

my nose is still leaking at the speed of 1 centremetre cube/ min.
gosh. i think my mom should change from the clothes industries to the tissue industry. my house is filled with tissue. yucky tissue.

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

sick at home and feeling utterly horrid with a leaking nose that requires the attention of a fresh clean piece of tissue every 5 seconds, and a very very VERY fuzzy brain filled with fuzzy thoughts.

i called you. but you didn't pick up.
the number you have dialled is currently unavailable, pls try again later.
i HATE that freaking voice.
where are you went i wanna talk to you?
i miss you.
hais.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

i've finally sorted out everything.
i'm very clear minded now and very sure of what i'm thinking.
but i'm not going to do anything about it.
cos it's simply beyond my control, besides, i don't think i have the time and leisure for it, at least not this year.

WEILING! I <333 you! haha. thanks for crapping with me about ZUN yesterday!
yes, i believe all rough patches will smoothen out, BE STRONG!
i was so crazily high after our convo yesterday *GRINS*
POWER OF WUZUN!
haha.
EH. sensual in NOT WRONG. you're just THINKING WRONG.
gosh. everyone would clamour after a guy who can COOK and flex his muscles and pacs at you simultaneously.
but, hello, i'm NOT as perv as to ask someone to cook topless OKAY.
you'll probably have to call the ambulance cos i'll be dying from nosebleed. HAHAHA.
sounds damn wrong. NVM!
haha. you'll see JIRO WANG having a nosebleed in the later hanakimi eps, wlau. it looks super wrong, cos his nose bled when he accidentally bumped into ella who was bathing. :XXXX
PERV.
HAHA.
and wuzun DOES not look like a gangster! although i don't really fancy his tatoos, i'm very sure he is a kind, si wen fella at heart. SEE, you told me not to judge by appearance, so i'm quite sure he has a VERY VERY nice personality. AWWW.
HAHA.

THANKS for everything[:
<333 your ex-2i mortal

PS: i know i've owed u your letter since forever :XX sorry!

Sunday, February 18, 2007

haha. my post this morning was utter rubbish, now i can't even understand what i was trying to blog about. my thoughts were so jumbled out that everything that came out was jibberish. i just needed to blog it away, to release some thoughts so that they wouldn't be stuck there the entire day.

crazier,
i thought.
maybe you're right.
my feelings got the better of me, now it's time to let my senses take control.
before i fall into a bottomless pit.
by that time, i think i can't even save myself from my own stubborness.
i'm not sure if i feel that way, but there were times that those feelings were so strong, that it ached. it was painful and heart wrenching.
then again, it's probably cos i want something that i've never really gotten before, so much so that i'm deciving myself into really think that i....
it's all an illusion.
it's the desire to want it rather than the need to have it.
i'm afraid to lose the position that i've taken so much to anchor.
i'm just living in self dillusion.
i can't believe i'm such a failure, hahaha.
making a mockery of myself.
somethings are better this way, don't let nature take it's course.
stop it at where it should, before i can't turn back.

thanks for the advice, i'll bear it in mind.

nothing can stop or distract me from getting what i want this year. nothing.

oh MAN. GOSH GOSH GOSH.
first day of the CNY and i made such a horrid HORRID mistake.
never ever EVER pick up the phone when you're 1/2 awake/asleep.
GRRR.
anyway, i picked up the phone just now and there was this super familiar voice looking for my ah ma, or my mom. anyone, but obviously not me, although the voice represented one of a young lad. so i kindly told him that my ah ma would be coming slightly later and then screamed for my mom downstairs, so on the way down the stairs, he started talking to me and i was like replying his questions robotically e.g.

Him: Happy New Year!
Me: [uhhh.] Same too you!
Him: i'm kang wei, i thought your grandmother should be at your house?
Me: uhhm. she's coming laterrr.
Me: *suddenly registers* i thought kang tai just came back from hongkong last night? i was still talking to him on MSN at like 2 am wudd.
Mom: *passes the phone to my mom who then scolds me* WHO ASK YOU TO BRING THE PHONE UPSTAIRS. *starts talking on the phone*
Me: *makes my way back to my room* AHHHHHHHHHHH! *ear-piercing scream*
OMG OMGGGGGGGGGG! he's KANG WEI, the one in NEW YORK! not KANG TAI, the one in HONG KONG. oh gosh oh gosh. i feel like ******* myself now!!!! *runs back to room*

omg luh. i've only seen him ONCE and have nv talked to him in my ENTIRE LIFE, kang wei i mean. but i know his brother kang tai, much better cos we always meet up in HK and stuff like that, he's like some big brother, so i like to go to his house when i'm free and mess up his stuff[ MUH HAHAHA.] and although kang wei is relatively better looking [oh man, this has nothing to do with the topic at all] and all, i COMPLETELY DO NOT KNOW HIM and i was talking on the phone as though i've known him for ages [ which is true if i presumed him to be kang tai cos i've known kang tai for more than 4 years] oh MAN... HOW COULD I HAVE DONE SOMETHING SO EMBARRASSING ON THE FIRST DAY OF CNY!!!!! gosh GOSH. i think my brain is malfunctioning so badly i can't even differentiate people properly. BUT! omg, they really sound like each otherrrr! and the way they speak is the same too! OMG. cos they have this weird ang morh accent although one is in HK and one is in NYC. GOSHHHH. *smack forehead* grrr. nvm. anyway, kang wei isn't coming back this yr, so i don't have to face him like i did last yr. WHAAAA.

PS: actually the reason he was looking for my ah ma[so random right. a young lad looking for my ah ma sounds utterly wrong] is cos he's my ah ma's GODSON luhh. gosh. which makes him my....god-grand uncle? WHA SEI.

PPS: he's only 27++ luhh. eh. i don't harbour any intentions okay. he's too old. although he may look good and is earning big bucks in NYC. BUT. NO. gosh. this sounds very very wrong. NOOOOO.