candies makes the world go round

Monday, November 20, 2006

maybe i got my message across the wrong way.
cos i didn't mean it that way.
and i never suspected that the stuff were copy and paste. that was the last thing on my mind.
harm has been done. so all i can say is i'm sorry.

probably i never expected this say to come to. maybe my line just snapped because i'm too overwhelmed by everything. i don't know.

-crazy

Friday, November 17, 2006

i want you to know that it doesn't mean that when i don't show it that i care for you and love you, means i don't bother about you.

you know i still can rmbr that day after 2I chalet, when i suddenly walk up towards you, you said "you have chief then abandon me le." and today you said "ohh i thought you have chief enough le." how hurtful can that be?

if i didn't bother about you, i wouldn't have even bothered to reply your posts by posting paragraphs and paragraphs of inspirational notes. if you didn't know, it was typed out, not copy and paste. and i wouldn't have even asked you about study dates for your amaths revision.

i admit i do neglect you sometimes.

i don't know what to say. i never knew this day would come.

crazier.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

光鲜亮丽的外表往往只是为了遮掩内心的丑陋。

我大概是这种人吧。

若没有朋友的点醒，我大概永远不会知道自己的恶劣。

力不从心的借口。也累了。

sorry to all those whom i'm flared up to today. especially my tennis team mates. i really didn't mean it. i'm just frustrated at myself for not being able to help. and no matter how much we try, everything seems to return back to square one. esp. sorry to jo and kel. thanks for being tolerant with my nonsense. when i always think that all is lost, thanks for being there to at least make me feel that there's hope. that sometimes when i need to grumble, there's someone to share.

thanks.

staf.

Monday, November 13, 2006

well since you like your pearl to be buried, then let it be.
i dont like forcing people to do something they dont like.
anyway, it's still the same thing, YOUR choice.
i can jolly well tell you i hate using reverse psychology.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

maybe i just want my pearl to be buried forever. avoiding is the behaviour of a weakling.
however, some things are better if left alone. not thinking. not doing. beacause you might screwed it up even more.

although you can chose what to think, what to believe, what to do. but the surroundings environment is always the crucial influencing factor to that decision, the one you make. althought you can always claim that it is your decision, but thinking deeper, is it always yours? or sometimes, it is the unknown circumstances that forces you to make that painful, forceful decision?

maybe all is lost because i'm too tired to carry on.

-crazy

Achievement is a brilliant contribution to self-worth!

Setting goals and applying determination and hard work are the routes to getting things accomplished. Wehn you've set a goal and achieved it, the message that you send to yourself is that you are a 'can do' person. Self efficacy-the "I-am-a-capaple-and-competent-person" statement- is a powerful building block for creating positive self-esteem. Self-esteem- the image you hold of yourself- is an important reflection, because just about everything you say and do stems from this picture. The good news is tahtyou have a say in this self-portrait- because the paintbrush is in your hands. Don't forget to add the "colour" of achievement when you're painting a picture of yourself! Ask yourself, "in what ways am I a 'can-do' person?"

you find the pearl yourself, afterall it's your pearl, and only you have the ability to find it yourself. You are the one who decides whether you have the strength to carry on doing something. No one can force you to do something that you don't want to do. Afterall, it's your choice.

Choices are something we have to make everyday, every minute, every moment. Simply coming online to chat is a choice made. Blogging right now here is also a choice made. "Go, pause, think, go" familiar? Everyday we make choices. We decide what's right and what's wrong. Your nervous system is only connected within your body, no one can control what you do, no one can control how you think. Life is about making choices. If you think you can find your pearl, if you think you want to find your pearl, you can definitely find it. Because whenever God takes things from us, He would definitely keep something for you.

YOU, decide it for yourself.
be it you have the strength or not, you decide it for yourself.

crazier.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

it is agreed that we must not dwell solely on our pain, however whenever you try to find that renewed courage within, you'll often find youself lost in the journey.
the journey of searching for that courage. the lost sheep of the herd.
the courage is always there but sometimes we just simply fail to see it.

sometimes it's not because of courage you fail to move on. it is just the fact that you no longer
have strength to carry on when faith, hope and wisdom is all lost.

maybe i just need to find that pearl.

did anyone happen to see mine?

-crazy

Consider how a beautiful pearl is the outcome of an intrusion (such as a grain of sand) within the oyster's shell. Likewise, the intrusion of disappointment, heartache or a particularly difficult time can transform a person into an illustrious soul.

Inevitably each of us will face times of sadness, sorrow or challenge in our lives- whether in the form of heartbreak, disappointment, humiliation, loss or other struggles. But we must celebrate the challenge as an opportunity to gain strength from its lesson and not dwell solely on the source of our pain, What the process of the development of a pearl teaches us is that suffering can be transformed into the pearl of renewed courage, hope, endurance, wisdom, faith or love. Each is a testimony of the majesty of the heart and soul to use sad times to deepen into life- to more fully appreciate our own resilience. Trust that you can learn something even in the challenge- and look for the pearl you have gained.

the crazier.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

you dont emo ah, cannot emo lah. if you emo then no one come zi-high with me le.
did we take any photos in class chalet? if you have you upload!
and i got in SYF(: yay finally a dream came true(:
hah i realised our way of doing work is different, thus quite difficult to organise things together. yet chalet was rather successful, thanks to us us us(:
stop screaming and whining ah!

cos everyone has their first times.
and if we dont try out, we'll never have a first time.

what one man can dream, many others will achieve.

crazier

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

suppose to be feeling super shitty today.
but surprisingly i'm not.
perhaps the influence isn't so big after all.
i guess i'm just reading too much into it.
maybe the prospects of working cheers me up.

i LOVE my shifu(mentor) and the company!
everyone's like a big family. this work attachment rawks.
i wish we could just stay here forever.
i bet we'll be very sad on the last day.

thank goodness for the job.
or i'll be at home wallowing in depression.
being busy helps keep things off the mind.
i wish i could just erase all those bad memories.
then i'll be a machine.