candies makes the world go round

hah the box of chocolates to make you fat!
you should be glad that i'm honest. (:
anw i think i gained super lots of weight lah.
GRRRH. i'm so angry with myself okay.
now that there's no flat tummy for my mid-drift.
and countdown is like tmr?
oh man and you see me dancing with fats bouncing.
oh no. SCREAMS!
still thinking of my hair. haven't thought of what to do with it.
and i'm not counting down at boon lay i think.
would most probably be home by then.
see first bah, see got mood or not.

anw it's common for you and ahem to quarrel i think. well my aiai and i do quarrel too. just that sometimes we have to learn to take the initiative and give in first, or just stop the quarreling. it's like that de lah. well there would be a time when you learn how to cherish each other, and you dont really quarrel anymore. well it would be those sa-jiao or lovey dovey quarreling. hah. i sound super expert in it. (:

oh haha i nearly forgot that i was blogging.
it's like 1955 now.
i was clearing my pictures folder.
(:
anw anw you're so blur i concluded.
okay i think i'd made my conclusion long long ago.

school's reopening.
actually i kinda dread school.
somehow i had this feeling of going back to school compounds and interact with your friends and juniors. yucks i hate that feeling actually. well i guess cos i dont really like to be a sec4. eeew.

woots i'm performing tmr.
hah. countdown.
my performance is like 2045, when hello it's COUNTDOWN?
at boon lay place blk 215.
anyone interested can come down and support DYNAMIC!

i feel so tired now.
):
i was thinking what you got for me from taiwan,
something that is fragile.
and i thought of a windchime.
which reminds me of you.
cos you love LIN FENG! and windchime is his twin!
FENG LIN! (:

crazier! (x

Friday, December 29, 2006

crazier!

haha. i know why no Xmas card!shall not tell u! [whispers:haha.cos the mailbox ate it up. CHOMP CHOMP. or my card must be too nice to be sent out (: ]

yupyup.

i agree. i've been slacking around at home too much, like some rotten meat[ew.] and day dreaming too much. thinking about stuff which i shouldn't even be. something that will distract me from what i want to achieve. something which means much more to me in life. like JC.

and xiaojie. it's nt aiai. even if it's aiai, at most is you or cel, nv THAT person. fang4 xin1 hao3 le4.

to THAT person...
i seriously don't care.
i DON'T.
at all.
so what if i don't fit on the scale.
YOUR scale.
i don't care.

why should i even bother.
geez.
what's gotten into me man.
i must have gone crazy from staying at home for too long.

CRAZIERRR. i miss you. hais.

Thursday, December 28, 2006

hello! it's me again! (:

and you're back!
don't ask me why no xmas cards. cause i'm not telling you.
HAHAH. (x

anyway school's starting.
advantages and disadvantages of school reopening.
ADVANTAGES:
- spend less money, especially on food.
- get to focus more on studies instead of day-dreaming.
- eat nice and cheap food. (:
- being oldest and most senior in the school.
- can see the nerd nerd sec1s, reminiscing about old days whereby we used to be the same.
- can see our friends, and come together as a class again.
- less money spent on bills, electricity water phone blah3.
- hang out with friends during recess more. (:

DISADVANTAGES
- competitions coming up
- finish hwk asap
- stay stay stay back for remedials and supplementary lessons.
- PIA every homework out
- no more day-dreaming in class
- O levels is just ahead
- time ZOOMS like a rocket
- stress is coming your way

hah isn't it interesting to compare like that.
in bio must draw table de worr.

i'm glad i think i finished all my homework. (:
now it's studying for chem.
i think it's best to memorise the chapter of metals now.
like the reactivity with HCl blahblahblah.
or else you will suffer mental diarrhoea and have a hard time memorising the stuff like you did on EOY chem.

hah you date with your aiai i date with my aiai.
but then you have more time for your aiai.
no more O levels for your aiai.
me and my aiai still have. hahah.
(:

hah my mum's currently yaya-ing about the clothes she bought.
take care.

the crazier.

Friday, December 22, 2006

awww didn't get to say goodbye to you.
and i only thought of sending you off like now.
i bet you're on the plane le lah.
taiwan is super cool. wahh. can see charis's guopinchao.
(:
taiwan reminds me of the days i went crazy over 5566.
5566, they died out long ago.
i guess there's so much more precious things than them now.
things like friendships and relationships.
oh my, they are so precious that you really want to hold on to them.

ohh and, you can choose to be happy even if the sky falls.
cos it's happiness, and no one can take your happiness away.
(:

all i want for christmas is you! - mariah carey

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas
Is you...

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon thefireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...
You baby

I don't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You...

All the lights are shining
SO brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells singing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need -
won't you please bring my baby to me...
Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You...
All I want for Christmas is you baby
Repeat

merry christmas my crazy!
let's crazy together this xmas!

crazier.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

ooh. going taiwan tomorrow! it never really did hit me that i was going taiwan until just now during dinner. i've been going around saying:yes, i'm going to taiwan on friday. uh huh. yes. this friday.
BUT. it JUST hit me that:WOW. i'm really going to TAIWAN.
geez.must be the overwhelming schedule of tuition and stuff. my brain is so clogged up that it can't process happiness anymore.

YAYE.i send out all my christmas cards! almost all! i accidentally left two at home. hope they'll be in time if i post them tomorrow.

i just hung up on panda this afternoon.so freaking pissed. always force me to do things to piss panda off. geez.okay. i wasn't really pissed. i was just. frustrated. cos we're always getting into arguements, okay. smalls tiffs rather. but we just can't stop talking on the phone. dammit. i NEED to come up with a resolution.

i hope the panda will stop bullying me by this christmas.

this holiday doesn't seem like a holiday. all i seem to be getting is another 2 hours of sleep. or else. it's the same busy schedule again. gosh. it's back to the ironic contridicting fact: i want to go back to school cos i can't wait to see everyone! BUT. the desire of wanting the hols to extend is much stronger. dammit. i don't want to go back to that freaky place to face all the old foggies, back to the mundane, anti-social lifestyle, where life is basically made up of school and work. what kinda childhood is that man.

and if you're asking me about my childhood. all i can remember is that i spend my upper primary school years mugging like nobody's business.

singaporean kids are SO DEPRIVED.

ciao[:
-crazy

Saturday, December 09, 2006

sometimes, i just don't know
what i want
what i'm thinking
where i'm exactly heading.

like my head is lost in some fog.

probably cos i think too much
and have an extreme and abstract personality.

the smallest things can make me upset
or happy.

and i infer too much from everything.

should stop being so sensitive about everything
and just live life simply.
be simple-minded and think straight.

then i'll stop messing up my already wrecked up life.

Friday, December 08, 2006

OMG. how can there be SUCH A PERSON EXISITING ON EARTH? i'm so HIGHLY AMUSED by the nonsensical rating that i can give h**. GOSH. omg lah. i'm so FREAKING ANNOYED now. that i'm venting it in everyway, on everyone i can. brother and jo has fallen to be my poor victims. GOSH.

can someone just do our society some justice and KILL HER? i'll be GRATEFUL ETERNALLY. i swear. thanks.

-crazy.

URGHHHH. *grits teeth*

sometimes. insignificant is more than a word. it's a feeling. have you ever thought why i said those things? maybe cos i felt insecure about the friendship? because when i message i feel like i'm talking to the wall when i had to summond alot of courage to send that. maybe cos it's true that i feel neglected. maybe because i care...too much. that's why most of the time i feel like i'm at the rock bottom of the pirority list. maybe you tried. tried hard. but i didn't happen to see it.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

crazier, if you saw my message, i hope you'll reply soon. cos i'm starting to suspect if you received it at all. and uhms. sigh. i just hope everything will be fine soon.

S.H.E. 我们怎么了

落泪以前再看一眼
你模糊侧脸
这会不会是最后纪念
我凝视你而你凝视窗外的阴天
一句抱歉都僵在嘴边
我搞不懂我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后
是否
住着伤口
我想不透我们的爱
怎么了雨下过以后
是否
能让什么
复活

你的笑脸还在胸前晃动着昨天
为何回忆会让人晕血
如果我们继续向前走进雨里面
会不会有溶解的危险
我搞不懂我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后
是否
住着伤口
我想不透我们的爱怎么了
雨下过以后
是否
能让什么复活

明明从前
连真挚都很甜美
现在怎会说句话就能肿一边
我搞不懂我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后
是否
住着伤口
我想不透
我们的爱怎么了
雨下过以后
是否
能让什么复活

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

AHHH. tennis chalet rawked! but...HAHA. it was too small, so in the end kel and jo had to stay over with 2 of the sec1s.it was a super funny sleepover cos it was decided on the last min and the sec1s couldn't sleep at all! so they wanted to keep harassing us until i made jolene usher them back to the guest room. gosh. they were freaking out at the slightest stuff! e.g. the tree outside the window and the curtains =.="

something bad happened at the chalet when the seniors stayed back, so i guess we all have to be more careful next time. hope they're okay [:

oh.and our DEAR TREASURER dropped the funds, only to find on the road of the carpark, it was a super funny process. too bad i wasn't there to witness it cos ying and i had to cab back to get the freaking bbq pit. *grunts*

watched OPEN SEASON with kel and jolene today! the movie was quite nice. ooh. aston kutcher has a sexay voice. AH HAHAHA. this sounds so wrong, but it's TRUE! xDD thank goodness it was better than over the hedge. that was like the first movie ever which caused me to fall asleep in the cinema[okay.maybe i shouldn't push all the blame onto the movie, although it's partly responsible. i was drained frm X country.]then shopped around before going home.

OOOH. i bought this book which teaches DIY accessory making frm TOKYO JULIET. it's super cool. i'm gonna make a pair of earrings myself and see how it looks like.

-sometimes we just have to be a robot to put a stop to that pain.forgetting it takes time.but the wound will heal one day.

live life to the fullest.
carpe diem.

PS:
to theFORGOTTEN-
thanks[: yes, when things go wrong, we have to move on, but sometimes, i can't help but sigh at those regrets. i guess we all have regrets in life. except i try to minimize them to the minimal.

i'm like super bored now so i decided to do this quiz i found on friendster!
credits to xiping! cos it's some bulletin she posted there. haha. so let's see how many crazy things i did outta 125.

Level 1
() smoked a cigarette
() smoked a cigar
() done weed
() kissed a member of the same sex
(x) drank alcohol
total:1

Level 2
(x) bitched about someone else?
( ) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
total:1

Level 3
( ) snuck out of a parent's house
(x) had a crush on someone?
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone out on a blind date
total:1

Level 4
( ) had a crush on a younger person?
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen something die
(x) literally kicked someone's ass
total:2

Level 5
(x) had/have a crush on one of yourclassmates
(x) been to China
(x) been to Spain
( ) been to Iceland
( ) thrown out for drinking
total:3

Level 6
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone through friendster
(x) been called an as*****
(x) lied?
total:3

Level 7
( ) been in an abusive relationship
( ) taken pain killers
(-) love/like someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watchedcloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow angel
total:1

Level 8
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
total:5

Level 9
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
total:4

Level 10
( ) used a fake/someone else's ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake
total:1

Level 11
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed/vandalize
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
( ) pet a reindeer
total:3

Level 12
(x) won a contest
( ) been suspended from school
( ) had detention
(x) been in a car/motorcycle accident
total:2

Level 13
( ) had/have braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream inone night
(x) had a headache
(x) swam at night
total:2

Level 14
(x) ever had someone gone on your nerves?
( ) witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with something(objects nothumans)
total:4

Level 15
( ) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost `all the time
( ) been to the opposite side of theworld
(x) swam in the sea
(x)felt like you were dying
total:3

Level 16
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently coloured withcrayons/coloredpencils/markers
(x)paid for a meal with only coins
total:4

Level 17
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) kissed in the rain
total:3

Level 18
( ) written a letter to Santa Clause
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun set
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
total: 3

Level 19
(x) crashed a party
( ) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) had a wish come true
( )Humped a monkey
total:2

Level 20
(x) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed "penis" at a footballgame.
( ) swimming with dolphins
total:1

Level 21
(x) got your tongue stuck to apole/freezer/ice cube
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sex clothes
total:2

Level 22
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) can do a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than3 hours
(x) stayed up all night
total:3

Level 23
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
( ) climbed a tree
( ) aren't scared to watch scarymovies alone
(x)been at a freezing cold place?
(x)ate a blueberry pie?
total:2

Level 25
(x) believe in ghosts
(x) have/had more then 10 pairs ofshoes
( ) gone streaking
( ) been in jail
total:2

count the total and repost with: i did 58 out of 125 crazy things.

omg. which proves the i'm crazy? but the quiz appeals to be to be more of lame than crazy :x
gosh.uhms. so i guess i beat xiping's record of 49?i hoped i counted correctly cos i've always seem to have this problem with numbers.OH WELLS.

Sunday, December 03, 2006

haha! thankew!! *MWACKS* for changing the blogskin!
heh. you know and i know. that i'm just too lazy!
i seriously wanted to change it *sticks up three fingers* SWEAR!
i did want. but urms. WANT. and did. kinda. contrasts. HAHAH.
the devil in me won the angel...
MY COUSIN GAVE BIRTH THIS MORNING! omgomg.
i'm gonna post the pic of my LOVELY niece in the next post.
simply too...[EHEM.] lazy to load the pics up the com.
cos the bluetooth device is really troublesome and you crazy partner here isn't exactly what you would call com savvy.

hmmm.free next monday? i should be okay on anyday that i'm free too(:
lemme know kaes.

OH. AND TENNIS MIGHT BE HAVING A CAMP WITH DANCE!! WHOOOO!! YEH!

learnt to take things in my stride.
the long-time wound has surfaced again. i thought by ignoring it, maybe it'll heal into a scar.
but i guess it didn't. and all i did was to leave it alone, and i realised if i didn't let it heal, it's going to rot and eat into me someday.
and i'll be letting down all the people that cares. *smiles*
it's no use letting something that has passed to defeat you again since there's simply nothing you can do about it, why not learn from your mistakes and not commit it again.
but how many can actually attain the level of the politcally correct answer?
maybe not me.
but the least i can do is to stop dwelling over the past and wallowing in self-pity.
MOVE ON with life.
i bet there are so much more things out there in life worth my life.
than some useless person who will never turn back.

我很坚强！！！

this is getting incoherent. never mind. just some random rantings.
you know...people will get crazy if they don't vent their frustrations out on way or another.

oh.i'm already crazy. so OH WELL. HEH.

Saturday, December 02, 2006

YOYOYO!

it's been long since i'm here hurr.
but anyway i've changed the blogskin, because the old one's image is spoilt i think.
took super long to change this okay!
so the next time you better change it, or else i slaughter you!
mwahaha!

anyway, we haven't been going out this holiday!
ask me out then. :D
i'll be glad to attend the date provided that i'm free.
hah!

anyway take care okay!
cos we're crazies. (:

crazier.