| Monday, March 12, 2007 |
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wanted to my do enjoy edu. but seems that there's always something in my way to stop me from completing that bloody online assignment. brrr.but that's not an excuse for sprouting vulgarities. nor is it an excuse for procrastinating. but nevermind. was being super high on wuzun. i totally wanted to blog about how hawt he was and everything, cos it seems that now he's the only highlight left of my very pathetic life. but that's superficial and redundant.so nvm again. friendship is the only ship that never sinks. something calvin chen said in the fahrenheit book i bought. he's one of my least fav members, but that's not the point. cos what he wrote made alot of sense. is it true? it sounds so...sincere. but then again. it made me suspect if that's true. all good things come to an end. probably not all friend-ships sink. but i'm sure that some will. like titanic did. it's not about being pessimitic, but face it. that's how life works. you can't hide in your own shell and pretend that this cold cruel world we're living in is nice colourful and warm. self-decpetion has taught me that it will only lead to self-destruction. not trying to be emotional. but i can't help it after reading some blogs. some people stay happy 24/7 because they either: 1. rational - because being upset doesn't slove anything. it doesn't get you anywhere either. 2. numb - too numb from everything that they long forgotten how is it like to feel the pain 3. virtual - they simply live in a world of their own. or maybe. some lucky minority are really free from troubles. i guess i experience choice 1,2 and 3 not simultaneously but rather in a systematic way when i'm feeling happy. sometimes, i think i'm pathetic. but before wallowing in self pity and all that crap, let's all thank god first that we're all born healthy and able-bodied. this is getting so random. i have no idea what i'm talking about as usual. but there're somethings i really need to let off my chest for a while. and. suddenly. it seems that i'm the only one left blogging here. |