candies makes the world go round

Friday, August 25, 2006

i must be nuts to be posting twice in an hour. but i just saw something.

i can recall vaguely this conversation i've heard before:

A: it takes two to maintain a freindship, just as how it takes two to clap

B:C really does care about it. but have u ever tried making an effort try salvage the situation?

A was stumped at the question. she felt guilty. she thought it was her fault. but today. i can tell A that she no longer needs to be stumped because it's over. No matter how much effort is put in to salvage the friendship, if both have drifted apart, mean it has drifted apart.
even if u try to minimise the distance between the two parties, the gap will be there forever.

besides, A is tired of salvaging friendships.

~~A has been hurt too many times and the pain should just stop.let the torture end.~~

if C wants it to end this way, then C has gotten the perfect ending. without A, C's picture is perfect.

A+B+C= -A+B+C

for once. i'm really at my wits end.

pressed for time.

need to sleep.

coming down with every single illness u can think of.

today was a bad day. I had screwed up training cos couldn't do the C-swing properly.
argh. so freaking frustrated at myself.it's bugging me.
coach gave an inspiring talk. haha. okay. probably it isn't something u'll call inspiring.
but i guess he noticed something. and i hope he sends his message clear and right across to the people who ought he thinks should be receiving it.
zoning out. haha. something he said.
have 101 things on my list to complete.
so many things, so little time. URGH. i sound like some stupid propaganda commercial for the Olsen twins' series.
but coming to think of it, it's true isn't it?
sec 3 has been a totally social life deprived year. and if this yr is already turning out this way, can u imagine next year?
UH. my brain cells tells me not to think. it'll probably just deter me from going to school.
the only thing which keeps me going now is that i have training to look forward at least at the end of the day. where u can whack stuff to release stress.
uh. ~~need anger mangement.~~ more like stress mangement.

Big bro is right. i shall stop getting stressed over every single nitty gritty thing. it'll send me ZOOMING into IMH before i even know it. suppose to meet BB tomorrow. but so freaking busy and tired.

HAIS. i shall go for training at tanglin tomorrow then. relieve stress.

WAIT.

I SHALL STOP USING THE WORD STRESS.

cos. i've realised. that it sounds more like an excuse than. anything.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

ahhh. sorry luh! haha. the whole sino programme knows i'm abusive, jamie practically aviods me like an emminent epidemic once she sees that i'm going on a "pinching-spree". HEH HEH.
you're just another unfortunately vicitm XD
hey. u whacked me too okay. HAHA.
left me with permanent PHOBIA.
HA.
YUSIN.
_____ ARHHH.
nvm.
crazier and i shall get you...NEXT TIME!
MUHAHAHA.

i guess we're all going through a rough patch this year.
with the changing of classes, we lost much and gained many.
or for some, it maybe vice versa.
for some reason.
this year seems to be one which i have lost much of my tears to.
again. I have screwed up another friendship.
it's probably be.
somehow.
probably god just feels that i don't deserve to have that many good friends.
or maybe the previous 14 years of my life have passed to smoothly,
someone out there decided to make this year one so painful that i'll never forget.
the sacrfices made to get something which i wanted so much seems unoworthy now,
for i'll never get back what i've lost.
for that screwed friendship, all i wanted to say is that:
if you don't give a damn. then i don't too okay.
i've really had enough. and if you think this is the way you wanted it to end.
then so be it.
i've always thought that we knew each other well.
maybe i was wrong. or maybe right out from the start, you already schemed to get something out of me.
i don't blame you.
for this is what i call the realistic world.

this seems to be a depressing blog.
i'm sorry to add to the sadness.
but there are some things which i need to get off my back.

take care, crazier.

i just hope the world can give me a break.

Saturday, August 19, 2006

here's a quote i want to share with you.
'Many of people's failures were not knowing how close they are to success when they gave up.'
-Thomas Edison

See, failing your chem test everytime doesn't mean that you would definitely fail the next one. or rather did badly. i just did a remedial worksheet on chem. and i found out my chem is really cham. so we shall mug together! mentally physically. haha. come on! dont be discouraged!

i've been very stressed up these few days. then mr sng had a dialogue session with me. he kept me crying for half of the dialogue session. and he says i'm going to dialogue with him again on friday. make me sound like a problematic kid. ):

yah it's just two more weeks to end of school! we will survive the ordeal together. and then i'll hit you a thousand times to make up for my loss XD

take care my crazy!
crazier with loads of crazy love(:

Thursday, August 10, 2006

you meanie!
#@!#$&!(%$&#(!%)!@%*)@!#% (x
leave a permanent scar on me i'll murder you ah!
muahahahaha!
so mean, you know pinch people very pain de leh.
so you pinch me one time, i will hit you a lot of times.
HAHAHA [:
i feel like smacking you now.

thecrazier,
see who's crazier?

Saturday, August 05, 2006

BOO!
i miss going out with you):
haha one day throw your buddy aside! XD
don't be stressed up about your work.
you can ask me! i know i'm good in maths(x
haha then i'll squeeze your chemistry juices out too!
if you need me i know you will feel free to call me(:
haha i'm just a phonecall away rmbr?
not too far too if you want to come find me!
you can go tanah merah mrt, take mrt to pasir ris, then take 89!

love the crazier.