zi-highing!

2007-11-20T15:40:00.001+08:00

FINALLY! :D :D :D

crazyandthecrazier blog is back! :D :D :D

Crazy is going overseas soon. Like she wont be in SG for the whole holiday. Sigh. So crazier has decided to get a job at Wild Wild WET! :D Okay I'm like telling the whole world I want a job there. :D

Oh can't find any photos. Oh well.

Let's go out soon! :D
Go your house bake cookies?

(:

Love, the crazier.

2007-03-12T00:42:00.000+08:00

wanted to my do enjoy edu.
but seems that there's always something in my way to stop me from completing that bloody online assignment.
brrr.but that's not an excuse for sprouting vulgarities.
nor is it an excuse for procrastinating.
but nevermind.
was being super high on wuzun. i totally wanted to blog about how hawt he was and everything, cos it seems that now he's the only highlight left of my very pathetic life.
but that's superficial and redundant.so nvm again.

friendship is the only ship that never sinks.
something calvin chen said in the fahrenheit book i bought.
he's one of my least fav members, but that's not the point. cos what he wrote made alot of sense.
is it true? it sounds so...sincere. but then again. it made me suspect if that's true.
all good things come to an end.
probably not all friend-ships sink. but i'm sure that some will. like titanic did.
it's not about being pessimitic, but face it.
that's how life works. you can't hide in your own shell and pretend that this cold cruel world we're living in is nice colourful and warm.
self-decpetion has taught me that it will only lead to self-destruction.
not trying to be emotional. but i can't help it after reading some blogs.
some people stay happy 24/7 because they either:
1. rational - because being upset doesn't slove anything. it doesn't get you anywhere either.
2. numb - too numb from everything that they long forgotten how is it like to feel the pain
3. virtual - they simply live in a world of their own.

or maybe. some lucky minority are really free from troubles.

i guess i experience choice 1,2 and 3 not simultaneously but rather in a systematic way when i'm feeling happy.
sometimes, i think i'm pathetic. but before wallowing in self pity and all that crap, let's all thank god first that we're all born healthy and able-bodied.
this is getting so random.
i have no idea what i'm talking about as usual. but there're somethings i really need to let off my chest for a while.

and. suddenly. it seems that i'm the only one left blogging here.

2007-03-05T16:18:00.000+08:00

THANKEW! and MWACKs to EVERYONE!

feel so LOVED today!
really wanna thank everyone for all their presents!
ping: for the really CUTE PINK OCTOPUS! i shall hug it everyday! ohhH! i decided to name it AH BU! after yanyalun!haha.your OU XIANG.
to HH, EUU and TUNNY, THANKS for the shirts and earrings. OMG. love them! the shirts RAWKED. thanks[: must have cost u guys a bomb right:D love you all to BITS!
crazy! thanks for the hourglass! i'll always remember your words[:
my VERY WHACKY team mates! omg. you guys always know me the best! TOTALLY LOVED the notebook! it was something i really really wanted to get! but it was so ex, i couldn't bear to buy it.HAHA. and the very sexy...EHEM. topshop under garment. HAHA. i knew something like that was coming my way
CEL. loved your note and the notebook! it meant the world:D really. WE SHOULD HAVE OUTINGS to camwhore! and pooh. haha. omg. how can u associate sexy with pooh?
Wanyan! for all the sweet stuff in the world. haha. make me spoil my diet luhh! *POUTS* :D
pixy! omg. sometimes, i wonder where u get your sources to finding presents. HAHA. tennis RAWKS.
charrr! YES. i shall put some HAWT WUZUN photo in there and DROOL at it everyday! LOL.

and to all those who wished me happy bday, online and in class, and everyone i missed out. THANKS[:
you've made this the best 16 bday ever.

2007-03-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

omg. i WAS suppose to be doing the stupid enjoy edu thingy. instead, i ended up talking to alot of people on MSN and now. i'm ACTUALLY BLOGGING. with the enjoy edu thingy still running. han lao shi is gonna wonder what took me so long to do a comprehension. 2HOURS. gosh. better hurry with the blogging.

i was talking to WEILING again just now! omg. we had such a random conversation. it was so funny. gosh, our conversations are always very amusing [or at least to me.]

tF / - ADORABLE DOG AHH <3> obviously our DEAR weiling.

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. - EH./STABS WEILING BACK! [有谁想和我去香格里拉吗?] -->obviously yours truely HERE.

_________

as the convo goes...

tF / says:
i realise that whenever i talk to you, something will happen

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
hurh?

tF / says:
that time was the timmy hung incident, yesterday was the yanyalun incident

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
wha. am i such a big jinx?
tF / says:
i wonder what will happen next *cues music*

tF / says:
HAHA

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
:xxx

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
LOL.

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
chey. i thought something rly bad.

tF / says:
HAHA eh it spoils my REPUTATION okay!

tF / says:
HAHA

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
LOL. dots lah!

tF / says:
my display picture rawks right

tF / says:
da dong looks like a porrrn star HAHA

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
OMG.

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
YUCK.

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
hahaha.

tF / says:
-.-

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
where do u get all these from!

tF / says:
COUGHS coughs COUGHS

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
i wanna go KOP all the CHUN ones

tF / says:
livejournal communities. koped and koped

tF / says:
: p

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
LOL.

tF / says:
so paiseh to all the creators :x

tF / says:
intellectual property

tF / says:
heh

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
omg. how can they make such NICE avatars outta such an EHEM person!

tF / says:
who is the EHEM AH?!

tF / says:
coughs by the way i supplied you with the DOG AVATAR!

tF / says:
you must kowtow me yess~~

tF / says:
hahaha

tF / says:
hey got to go~

tF / says:
dream of zun!

tF / says:
( :

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
HAHA.

>staffy. the short kid[: till death do us part. {♥ wuzun}HAWT stuff. says:
ciao! thanekw thankew.

tF / says:
why must i share the same display picture as you? later people think i like wuzun also

tF / says:
when i actually like the DOG! AAAAAH

tF / says:
sobs spoil my reputation. see lah, 3rd time already

tF / says:
HAHAHA okay enough of my crap byeee~ <3

omg. basically. our whole convo was on farenheit [again. haha!] and we were argueing over two funny dadong and wuzun avatars. HAHAHA. i think we're so lame.
BUT i <33 YOU WEILING! haha. our feilunhai convos keeps me HIGH!
haha.

my nose is still leaking at the speed of 1 centremetre cube/ min.
gosh. i think my mom should change from the clothes industries to the tissue industry. my house is filled with tissue. yucky tissue.

2007-02-28T19:57:00.000+08:00

sick at home and feeling utterly horrid with a leaking nose that requires the attention of a fresh clean piece of tissue every 5 seconds, and a very very VERY fuzzy brain filled with fuzzy thoughts.

i called you. but you didn't pick up.
the number you have dialled is currently unavailable, pls try again later.
i HATE that freaking voice.
where are you went i wanna talk to you?
i miss you.
hais.

2007-02-21T17:18:00.000+08:00

i've finally sorted out everything.
i'm very clear minded now and very sure of what i'm thinking.
but i'm not going to do anything about it.
cos it's simply beyond my control, besides, i don't think i have the time and leisure for it, at least not this year.

WEILING! I <333 you! haha. thanks for crapping with me about ZUN yesterday!
yes, i believe all rough patches will smoothen out, BE STRONG!
i was so crazily high after our convo yesterday *GRINS*
POWER OF WUZUN!
haha.
EH. sensual in NOT WRONG. you're just THINKING WRONG.
gosh. everyone would clamour after a guy who can COOK and flex his muscles and pacs at you simultaneously.
but, hello, i'm NOT as perv as to ask someone to cook topless OKAY.
you'll probably have to call the ambulance cos i'll be dying from nosebleed. HAHAHA.
sounds damn wrong. NVM!
haha. you'll see JIRO WANG having a nosebleed in the later hanakimi eps, wlau. it looks super wrong, cos his nose bled when he accidentally bumped into ella who was bathing. :XXXX
PERV.
HAHA.
and wuzun DOES not look like a gangster! although i don't really fancy his tatoos, i'm very sure he is a kind, si wen fella at heart. SEE, you told me not to judge by appearance, so i'm quite sure he has a VERY VERY nice personality. AWWW.
HAHA.

THANKS for everything[:
<333 your ex-2i mortal

PS: i know i've owed u your letter since forever :XX sorry!

2007-02-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

haha. my post this morning was utter rubbish, now i can't even understand what i was trying to blog about. my thoughts were so jumbled out that everything that came out was jibberish. i just needed to blog it away, to release some thoughts so that they wouldn't be stuck there the entire day.

crazier,
i thought.
maybe you're right.
my feelings got the better of me, now it's time to let my senses take control.
before i fall into a bottomless pit.
by that time, i think i can't even save myself from my own stubborness.
i'm not sure if i feel that way, but there were times that those feelings were so strong, that it ached. it was painful and heart wrenching.
then again, it's probably cos i want something that i've never really gotten before, so much so that i'm deciving myself into really think that i....
it's all an illusion.
it's the desire to want it rather than the need to have it.
i'm afraid to lose the position that i've taken so much to anchor.
i'm just living in self dillusion.
i can't believe i'm such a failure, hahaha.
making a mockery of myself.
somethings are better this way, don't let nature take it's course.
stop it at where it should, before i can't turn back.

thanks for the advice, i'll bear it in mind.

nothing can stop or distract me from getting what i want this year. nothing.

2007-02-18T11:30:00.000+08:00

oh MAN. GOSH GOSH GOSH.
first day of the CNY and i made such a horrid HORRID mistake.
never ever EVER pick up the phone when you're 1/2 awake/asleep.
GRRR.
anyway, i picked up the phone just now and there was this super familiar voice looking for my ah ma, or my mom. anyone, but obviously not me, although the voice represented one of a young lad. so i kindly told him that my ah ma would be coming slightly later and then screamed for my mom downstairs, so on the way down the stairs, he started talking to me and i was like replying his questions robotically e.g.

Him: Happy New Year!
Me: [uhhh.] Same too you!
Him: i'm kang wei, i thought your grandmother should be at your house?
Me: uhhm. she's coming laterrr.
Me: *suddenly registers* i thought kang tai just came back from hongkong last night? i was still talking to him on MSN at like 2 am wudd.
Mom: *passes the phone to my mom who then scolds me* WHO ASK YOU TO BRING THE PHONE UPSTAIRS. *starts talking on the phone*
Me: *makes my way back to my room* AHHHHHHHHHHH! *ear-piercing scream*
OMG OMGGGGGGGGGG! he's KANG WEI, the one in NEW YORK! not KANG TAI, the one in HONG KONG. oh gosh oh gosh. i feel like ******* myself now!!!! *runs back to room*

omg luh. i've only seen him ONCE and have nv talked to him in my ENTIRE LIFE, kang wei i mean. but i know his brother kang tai, much better cos we always meet up in HK and stuff like that, he's like some big brother, so i like to go to his house when i'm free and mess up his stuff[ MUH HAHAHA.] and although kang wei is relatively better looking [oh man, this has nothing to do with the topic at all] and all, i COMPLETELY DO NOT KNOW HIM and i was talking on the phone as though i've known him for ages [ which is true if i presumed him to be kang tai cos i've known kang tai for more than 4 years] oh MAN... HOW COULD I HAVE DONE SOMETHING SO EMBARRASSING ON THE FIRST DAY OF CNY!!!!! gosh GOSH. i think my brain is malfunctioning so badly i can't even differentiate people properly. BUT! omg, they really sound like each otherrrr! and the way they speak is the same too! OMG. cos they have this weird ang morh accent although one is in HK and one is in NYC. GOSHHHH. *smack forehead* grrr. nvm. anyway, kang wei isn't coming back this yr, so i don't have to face him like i did last yr. WHAAAA.

PS: actually the reason he was looking for my ah ma[so random right. a young lad looking for my ah ma sounds utterly wrong] is cos he's my ah ma's GODSON luhh. gosh. which makes him my....god-grand uncle? WHA SEI.

PPS: he's only 27++ luhh. eh. i don't harbour any intentions okay. he's too old. although he may look good and is earning big bucks in NYC. BUT. NO. gosh. this sounds very very wrong. NOOOOO.

2007-02-14T19:49:00.000+08:00

两个人在一起最重要的是要开心
只要有彼此相伴，时间的长与短，地点，做什么，都变得微不足道
因为有你世界变得更美丽

我爱你

happy v day[:
-spread the love cos love makes the world go round-

thankew everyone for the everything you've given[: you've made this v day the best one ever.

2007-02-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

TODAY was result day!
firstly. congrats to everyone who did well, and for those who didn't, just take a deep breath in and tell youself it's okay, the end of the world is not here yet. i still have a long way to go. or maybe to cry till you're dry works better. well, somehow it works for me.

a day filled with joy and tears. tears of joy. tears of sadness. disappointment. happiness. all the emotions came at once. a person with a slightly weaker heart would not be able to take it. everything seemed to come pouring out at once, probably for some, the feelings you expressed today was almost all that you have had your entire life. maybe for my case.

i feel so dumb. i teared before receiving results and totally burst out crying after receiving it. i must be the biggest fool on earth. yes, false alarm, those who saw my outburst after i majority left the classroom. i did okay. i just felt overcome by everything at that moment.

congrats to panda and deuterium fL'uoride. you guys know who you are, so...ALL THE BEST FOR the next 2 years- 3 months!

and i wanna specially thank deuterium fL'uoride here. thanks for all those words and console, i really appreciated it. and probably you are one of the few that knew i was crumbling under everything. but i'll hang on[: thanks, it's great to have a friend like you.

oh. i forgot to mention, i got a1 for MOTHER TONGUE and distinction for oral!!
ps: ehh. zhanyu. chill kaes. you still have 8 more subjects to go...i hope you're not badly affected by it.

i'm trying very hard not to be pissed. maybe. i do take things too seriously at times, but that's because i care. if i didn't, i won't bother myself at all. but you seem to view that as an excuse for me to be dominating. maybe. i've been living in my own world for the past 16 years, oblivious to the people who have to put up with me. probably, it's time for some self-reflection. but i'm hurt by what you said, regardless of whether you meant it or not. i really am.

sometimes, words are the most powerful weapons.

2007-02-07T20:16:00.000+08:00

the overwhelming disappointment now cannot be described.
i never hated myself so much ever.
tears spill out from the already numb heart.
i remembered what sus said before the match.
and i swore to prove him wrong.
but it all ended up to nothing.
i let myself down. my team down. coach down.
i just wrecked everything.
probably i was never meant to be.
i always suspected that the position of cap never suited.
and now, i can't agree more.
i just want to be a normal team tennis player.
to play for passion and joy.
yet now, it has been forced to become my worst enemy. my biggest nightmare.
as the heart bleeds.
i think i will never touch the racket no more.

hey crazy.
i, too, share the same sentiments.
i never seemed the leading material. maybe. i was not meant for great things.
the week has never been more screwed up since sec4 started.
there's hardly any 'lighter note' these days. probably the only thing i look forward to the moment i get out of bed every morning, is when will i be going back to bed again.
zombie-fied. i feel like a robot.
everyone's telling me to enjoy the last year of secondary school and treasure the times.
but then, it hardly seems possible.
there's almost nothing happy to look forward now.
even CNY seems bland in comparison.
sorry, down and out today.

yep. we should be CRAZY one day.
how i miss those times.

2007-02-04T18:45:00.000+08:00

hello crazy.

as you know, my whole week was screwed up.
quite sick and tired of the whole thing already.
it isn't tough to be one.
yucks. i wondered why i took up that job sometimes.

anyway, aiyah i wanted to use "on a lighter note", but then it seems that there are no lighter notes. school is hectic, and will be hectic till O levels end. by then i guess i would just shout and scream. ahhh. should practise it now. (:

next friday would be release of O levels results. for us, mother tongue. i always wonder why they call it mother tongue. it's like so what if your mum speaks that language? Anyway, all the best for friday. and also to your tournaments. (: dont get too stressed up. for me, SYF practice is rather sucky too. laoshi called my name for countless times. yucks.

hmm CNY is coming. i don't like CNY. the angpao money doesn't tempt me, since i always leave before my aunts come. so i dont get a lot of money for CNY. i'm quite ren ming le. the only thing i like about CNY is reunion dinner at my ahma's house. i like the sea cucumber she cooks. (: and endless bak gua to eat! ahhh i'm like putting on weight. eew.

take care crazy.
let's be crazy one day.

2007-02-04T13:36:00.000+08:00

爱到爱到
爱到脑海里有一万个你快爆掉
你一个眼神我什么都好
或许就是狠狠爱到
这就是电到

爱到爱到
每夜失眠脸上却还傻傻在微笑
谁叫你可爱到无法救药
让我这样狠狠爱到

黑色的瞳孔带着闪亮
空气中飘着你无敌迷人发香
每一个小动作都吸引
我就算洗脑也无法将你忘掉

我学会什么叫二话不说
你开口我就没办法Say No
这感觉找不到适合形容
费洛蒙向我进攻就被你掌控 Oh Baby

爱到爱到
爱到脑海里有一万个你快爆掉
你一个眼神我什么都好
或许就是狠狠爱到
这就是电到

爱到爱到
每夜失眠脸上却还傻傻在微笑
谁叫你可爱到无法救药
让我这样狠狠爱到

就是爱到
将你缝上纽扣扣住我
爱到步让你有任何机会挣脱
在一起的时间绝不错过
车子后座我只会为你保留

就是想要把你占为己有
不要你出现在别人眼中
紧紧抱住你哪怕会痛
舍不得眨眼怕少看你一秒钟 Oh Baby

[爱到- Farenheit.]

so freaking upset with what the bloody REDS did to my hair.
@#$%%^#$#%^^&%%$#@
i'm NEVER going there again.
to think i BLASTED FORTY THREE BUCKS in that $^%$#@#$$% salon.
GRRRRR.

feeling super empty yesterday.
probably if i didn't go out, i'll just be at home staring aimlessly out of the window.
didn't feel like mugging[like wha.] or doing anything.
the mind just just blank.
empty.
i was wondering what have i been doing with my life this past year.
january was gone in the blink of an eye.
and Os are inching towards us quietly, like a silent killer.
waiting to catch us everytime we let our guards down.
and how come one person has so much power over your mind?
just one person.
to make me daze off again.
i need to find myself back.
i need that person, who would do anything to achieve her goals, back.
i've lost her since the start of last year. after sec2.
if anyone found her, please return her back to me.
thanks.

2007-01-22T19:48:00.000+08:00

at the start of the year. it's already so mentally and physically taxing.
everyone i've grumbled to now knows i have 4 trainings in school and maybe 1-2 outside.
i'm trying not to complain but what seemed like a passion yesterday has metamorphorsized into a mundane routine.
or it least i'm having less fun than ever.
that why i always think competitions are screw ups.
okay. maybe not if you go there and wipe the grin off everyone's faces but trashing their butts.
KEEP THE COURT CLEAN. TRASH YOUR OPPONENTS.
is what i saw on a nike shirt that day with kel while hunting for tournament attire.
unfortunately, this isn't gonna happen anytime soon.
especially with the seniors gone and with my batch, i try to keep the positive level up although it's so every challenging to do so.
the original joy of playing is gone. what is left of us is the stress as sec4s to uphold the name of the school is our upcoming SUCK-iest draw we've had in a MIL years.
but everyone's facing the same problem, it being the SYF year and all.
SO JIAYOU CRAZIER!!!!
and for the sports and games, it doesn't really make a difference since year in year out we fight it out in the zonals then nationals.
all i can be thankful for is that we get to enter nationals straight.
but that also means the competitiveness and intensity level is much higher. then again. what is a competition for without the desire to win?

what is left now is an empty tired shell which will be entirely exhausted of by the end of tournament.

did anyone see my soul?

but we shall jiayous. for we're all stuck in such a helpless predicament where fate manipulates us to his whimps and fancies. all we can do is try to survive this game of his where we're all chess pieces, fighting for the last ounce of strength.

when i look at my phone, it never rings. where are you when i need you. it seems that we were never meant to be at all.

2007-01-15T21:39:00.000+08:00

I never knew that you were that important.
i realise that i really regretted what i did yesterday evening.
i think i'm an idiot to have hung up.
dammit.
just to win. that wasn't worth it.
way not worth it.
sometimes, i hate myself for being so impulsive.
you're not only my friend, but probably one of the best i've got.
the only one who has a high tolerance level for all my childishness and endless rantings.
and all those times.
and i almost ended up in a chemical accident which testing for an-ions and cat-ions during chem today cos my mind was totally somewhere else.
and i was in a daze for the rest of the day.
i hope the phone could just ring now.
so freaking tired.

2007-01-14T13:17:00.000+08:00

Pixy: Oh thanks! i liked the post too *smiles*i i think it says alot about what we're experiencing, or rather what i am. ha.

Eunice:LOL! haha. mine too! OMG. today was SUPER FUN! i still feel bad about laughing so loudly about that aunty and my wuzun mag. but i'm UTTERLY CONVINCED that that guy is gay man. no doubts about it. HA. we better grab the chance to go out before the pia-ing period starts after CNY. or rather, the marathon has already started. *sobs*

crazy: ditto. same here, chill kaes. not worth getting mad over such useless people, just adds wrinkles to our pretty faces and white hair to our very brainy heads. i was darned pissed on friday too. but i decided to let things go. no point getting angry over something we can't change. hais.

oh. super happy about going out with euu and hh yesterday. we walked till we could hardly stand! and eunice says i eat alot! *SOBS!* i was just rattling on about the food, lol, i couldn't be serious about eathing those. even if my tummy could take it, i don't think my wallet can take on that heavy burden. ha.

I BOUGHT A NEW PAIR OF SLIPPERS! yaye! finally! it's like bright pink frm NUM @ heeren. euu and hh claims it so PINKY. like muah. UH. NO. i have to defend myself! i tried the GREEN one! it just looks funny on my foot, so it's the colour pink that likes me and not the other way round! and we had some very yummy, not to mention, spicy beef noodles at taka for dinner. YUM YUM. and i spend $80 yesterday. WHA. *eyes open wide in shock* i seriously didn't know i had the potential for spending so much money in a day. GOSH. shall take euu's advice and MARRY A MONEY TREE. AH AHHAHA. i thought that was really really COLD. brrr. haha.

and tunny's sick! so she didn't go out with us. sad! GET WELL SOON TUNNY!

and i found something! OHH. i need to talk to GOH WEILING NOW! gosh. why isn't she online?AHHH.i know she'll say i'm such a SMART GIRL for helping her find it. YAYE! ha. we break even cos u helped me for ah boy and now i found something to repay back!

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我搞不清楚自己是什么人，不知道怎么诠释给你们知道，你们看不出来我是真么样子，你们不认识我，我也不认识我自己。
-hebe.

something which i saw on a mag said by hebe [S.H.E.] and this is the exact sentence which i ahve been looking for, to describe myself.

2007-01-14T12:41:00.000+08:00

someone's just driving me crazy.
and i cant stand it. yucks. i hate it.
RAHH>
i'm super angry.
and i so hate attention seekers.

people who seek for attraction have very sad life.
because they dont receive attention at home.
thus they have to find other means of receiving attention.
somehow i pity these kind of people.

i'm glad the both of us don't seek attention.
(:

2007-01-09T19:52:00.000+08:00

i just wanna know. why no matter what i do, i just can't get things right?
no matter how much effort i put in. i'll just BOUND to screw up something?
some people are born to lead. maybe i'm just lacking in that talent.

-crazy.

2007-01-08T18:08:00.000+08:00

I LOVE CANDY.

i think i shall call crazier after mugging my physics. need to catch up since i spent AN HOUR SLEEPING. stupid panda. panda was the one who got me into sleeping. URGH. told P to stop keep me awake, cos i had this feeling i was gonna sleep. and P just put down the phone cos P's mummy came home. and urgh. i was on the bed talking on the phone and i just fell sleep until another phone call came at 5.00 at wake me up. HAHA. P was quite positive i feel asleep and decided to give me a 'morning call' OKAYYY. thankew gor. i shall go MUG MUG MUG NOW.

wha. and that huihong, shuang shuang tell me she go J8 and can buy euu's pressie. AHHH. i'm MOVIE DEPRIVED. i want to go out TOO!

2007-01-07T23:27:00.000+08:00

the below was something i read off ...uhm.a friend's friend's blog i guess, you could say.cos i don't know this person at all. i came across his blog recently while blog surfing as usual, or rather kay-poing. but i must say. much of the stuff he says makes alot of sense. and it's the exact thing i would want to say if i had this command of english which i can only envy.

but before anyone reads on. LET ME CLEAR THIS UP ONCE AGAIN. i DO NOT know this guy in one way or another.thankew.

credits to:http://ed-t.blogspot.com/

Was it worth it?
All that effort, was it worth it?
All that hard work, was it worth it?
All that time spent, was it worth it?
All that shouting to maintain order, was it worth it?
All that enthusiasm, was it worth it?
All that sacrifice, was it worth it?
All that pain, was it worth it?
All that friction, was it worth it?
All that sweat, was it worth it?
All that endurance, was it worth it?
All that tolerance, was it worth it?

Sometimes, life isn’t fair. It slaps you in the face and makes a mockery of all the hard work that you have put in. While you slog away and try to keep everyone safe, make everything run smoothly, others laze around and yet reap more benefits than you.

Why should I put in that extra effort? It is not worth it, right?

I was asked for advice in running a game, and I thought my answer was rather apt. “Who gives a fvck?” I might have hurt Kenneth, but my conscience remains clear. I’ve already said that I will not help, and I stand by my decision.

You might think that I am being self-centered and selfish.

I don’t pretend that I am a saint or a holy person who does not work for rewards. I am ruthlessly pragmatic. You reap what you sow. When I sow something, I expect to reap something.

The reward does not have to be monetary in nature. Just a smile, or a thank-you, or some appreciation, or some credit would have done nicely.

But no, you’re telling me that the way to be a ___ is to just sit at the steps and see which girl is pretty, while the idiots try to get everything done.

what i wanted to emphasize on was the first paragraph which i have made bold above. probably we are in different positions but i believe everyone holding a leadership position or happens to be a leader on one way or another, no matter CCA, group work or class chairman would encounter such a problem. after many occassion when you put in much effort and see that nothing comes back, you would, too, start to doubt yourself and the amount that you have invested. is it fair? i say not. a leader either does 1)the dirties jobs with the people who are nice enough to lend a helping hand and render their services or 2) just sit and see time past. it's as simple as that, only two scenarios.

sometimes it's the appreciation that gives us the strength and recognition to carry on. you can't pretend, like the above mentioned, that you're some holy saint. well. that's not gonna happen cos even saint has a devil in him, i'm sure. okay. well, probably only mother theresa is that noble, but hello? she got recognition too.

the main point, is that. start appreciating the people around you and the little things they do. leader or not, that's not important. but it's the little gestures that won't take up much of your time - for example a smile, that makes the world a better place to live in.

2007-01-06T10:10:00.000+08:00

Stafani --

[noun]:

A human transformer (Robot in disguise)

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

hmm. okay. so i guess robots. they're suppose to be emotion-less and someone who mugs no day and night. like me? i'm supppose to be lack of feeling when most of my decisions are based on that? means i'm a malfunctioning robot. greatness!

i guess i turn to the blog when i'm feeeling horrid most of the time so most of the posts are probably the most negative side you can see[unless of course i manage to grumble it off to someone before the troubles make it to blogger.]

suddenly. i was hoping that the way i typed was somewhat sophisticated like weiling. or maybe mature. like my friend's blog. but i guess everyone has their own style. but mine's like free style: childish with simple, comprehensive english. oh wells.

the year somehow didn't start off very well. but most teachers followed us up, means we have less to adapt to all over again. in a good and bad way. i'll be MORE THAN HAPPY to adapt if they gave us 'better' teachers like Ms Chng [opps. i hope mr M.C. doesn't see this] like how i'd adapting to mr tay, cos i have this feeling he's gonna be the best maths teacher [ in terms of teaching, okay. on par with mrs chia, but plus the humour] in 4 years.

however, bad or not, is how the mind perceives. i think ms ng said something like ' the mind perceives what you think' or something along the lines, yesterday. OHH. i MUST say, we all got to know ms ng veyr much better affter yesterday. oh my. does she have an interesting life when she's so young. wha. if i had half the excitement she had, i'll be in the clouds.

5 hours of tution today consisting of chem+phy+a maths. i'm wondering how i'm going to make it to the end of the day.

and this year. i think i'm already experiencing the first lost of the year. why do i have to get this year in year out? man. i HATE. emphasize. HATE this process. and this year, it's gonna be panda. it's definitely gonna be panda. i can already feel the drift. wish me luck for dealing with this blow this year.

2007-01-04T21:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BURFDAY WANYAN!!!!

today. was a horrible day.
maybe not totally horrid...but still.
tired as usual.
utterly disappointed in some people.but i guess i expected this kinda attitude.
some people just don't get it, do they?
so many things to do.busybusybusy.
feel so alone sometimes.
like there're so many matters and no one can help.

i'm already sinking into depression on the 2nd day of school.
i wonder how i'm gonna survive competition period and Os.
prepare to see a very snappy me.
pls bear with it.

-ciao
crazy):

2007-01-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

Your Summer Love Style is Serious

While others may be into a summer fling, you're about the real thing.
And there's a good chance you're already serious with someone already.
For you, the summer is about getting closer and more committed.
Just don't get tempted by any of that hot weather eye candy!

What's Your Summer Love Style?

hmm.what shall i say. i never approved of flings. aren't relationships suppose to be serious. gosh. unless you're like cassanova.EW.

You Are 52% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

so i guess it's okay? cos it's quite neutral, i'm not on an extreme particular side eh?

You're an Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

is this suppose to be bad? A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble. <- EH. what is this suppose to mean? i'm very guai1 okayy.

Your Love Style is Eros

For you, love is all about the passion!

And chances are, you're currently in love.

You have a strong physical response to love...

And you are great at committing

(As long as the person makes your toes curl!)

What's Your Love Style?

gosh. NUH UH. i'm in LOVE? BLEAH, HAHAHA. yeh, okay, maybe there's some truth to it, cos I'M IN LOVE WITH MYSELF.awww.so cool right.

2007-01-01T04:00:00.000+08:00

YAYE.
i LOVE the re-vamped blogskin.
okay.it's not really revamped, but i added stuff to it.
i spent a long time okay! rearranging and rearranging the pics.
the sweets look really yummy[:

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

new year is such a happy occassion suddenly[:
cos an old friend came to talk to me, after wishing me happy new year.
i'm quite surprised he actually got over the fact that i pushed him into the pool[at the class gathering] and totally wrecked his[already very old] phone.
HAHA.
still in the state of shock.
we can actually hold a conversation without getting into a scuffle!!
ha.i guess i'm more prone into getting into arguments with guys.
different channel you see.

i am still very shocked.
haha.
cos i have this idea in my head that he told the whole world i wrecked his phone.
ALTHOUGH. i TRIED to blow it dry with a hair dryer and i DID apologise.
but he didn't seem to take it that well 2 yrs back.
AH HAHAA.

HAPPY NEW YEAR once again!

2006-12-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

HEI-lo!

omg.how come i'm so blurh?!?!? okay. i admit, i maybe abit of a screw lose at some point. but not that kinda sotong blurh bah. UHM. okay. then again. maybe i am, cos my dear table partner calls me: sotong octopus cuttlefish. haha. totally emphasizes on that fact.

i realise i'm always retreating back to the blog whenever something goes wrong between me and that person. i seriously hope the day that we'll cherish the friendship will come soon. cos i don't think any friendship can last if both parties get into an argument every 2days. at least. i better go for some anger management course if i'm thinking about getting things to actually work. or. probably i should go on some cambridge diet. DAMMIT.

awww.sus just sent me this super cute sms:
"Happy new year! May we survive through this yr of agony so that the end shall be as sweet as me...Haha. Can't wait to see u guys soon. The teachers can wait though..."

AWW.

i TOTALLY agree. the teachers can wait a nong LONG nong time.

i'm already starting to dread[like you] the coming of this new year.which is like arrving in another 1+hr. i'm starting to hate school. i seriously hate O levels. i'm already STRESSED before the school term starts. i'm wondering how i'm gonna survive this year full of agony and torture. i think i'll end up seeing a shrink/psychiatrist. i need to learn how to handle with stress.

OHH.suddenly i realised there's something to look forward to in school after all, LEADERS' INVEST! yaye. okay. but that will be like end of term1 or in term2. AGONISING YEAR.

-crazy

2006-12-30T19:32:00.000+08:00

hah the box of chocolates to make you fat!
you should be glad that i'm honest. (:
anw i think i gained super lots of weight lah.
GRRRH. i'm so angry with myself okay.
now that there's no flat tummy for my mid-drift.
and countdown is like tmr?
oh man and you see me dancing with fats bouncing.
oh no. SCREAMS!
still thinking of my hair. haven't thought of what to do with it.
and i'm not counting down at boon lay i think.
would most probably be home by then.
see first bah, see got mood or not.

anw it's common for you and ahem to quarrel i think. well my aiai and i do quarrel too. just that sometimes we have to learn to take the initiative and give in first, or just stop the quarreling. it's like that de lah. well there would be a time when you learn how to cherish each other, and you dont really quarrel anymore. well it would be those sa-jiao or lovey dovey quarreling. hah. i sound super expert in it. (:

oh haha i nearly forgot that i was blogging.
it's like 1955 now.
i was clearing my pictures folder.
(:
anw anw you're so blur i concluded.
okay i think i'd made my conclusion long long ago.

school's reopening.
actually i kinda dread school.
somehow i had this feeling of going back to school compounds and interact with your friends and juniors. yucks i hate that feeling actually. well i guess cos i dont really like to be a sec4. eeew.

woots i'm performing tmr.
hah. countdown.
my performance is like 2045, when hello it's COUNTDOWN?
at boon lay place blk 215.
anyone interested can come down and support DYNAMIC!

i feel so tired now.
):
i was thinking what you got for me from taiwan,
something that is fragile.
and i thought of a windchime.
which reminds me of you.
cos you love LIN FENG! and windchime is his twin!
FENG LIN! (:

crazier! (x

2006-12-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

crazier!

haha. i know why no Xmas card!shall not tell u! [whispers:haha.cos the mailbox ate it up. CHOMP CHOMP. or my card must be too nice to be sent out (: ]

yupyup.

i agree. i've been slacking around at home too much, like some rotten meat[ew.] and day dreaming too much. thinking about stuff which i shouldn't even be. something that will distract me from what i want to achieve. something which means much more to me in life. like JC.

and xiaojie. it's nt aiai. even if it's aiai, at most is you or cel, nv THAT person. fang4 xin1 hao3 le4.

to THAT person...
i seriously don't care.
i DON'T.
at all.
so what if i don't fit on the scale.
YOUR scale.
i don't care.

why should i even bother.
geez.
what's gotten into me man.
i must have gone crazy from staying at home for too long.

CRAZIERRR. i miss you. hais.

2006-12-28T18:17:00.000+08:00

hello! it's me again! (:

and you're back!
don't ask me why no xmas cards. cause i'm not telling you.
HAHAH. (x

anyway school's starting.
advantages and disadvantages of school reopening.
ADVANTAGES:
- spend less money, especially on food.
- get to focus more on studies instead of day-dreaming.
- eat nice and cheap food. (:
- being oldest and most senior in the school.
- can see the nerd nerd sec1s, reminiscing about old days whereby we used to be the same.
- can see our friends, and come together as a class again.
- less money spent on bills, electricity water phone blah3.
- hang out with friends during recess more. (:

DISADVANTAGES
- competitions coming up
- finish hwk asap
- stay stay stay back for remedials and supplementary lessons.
- PIA every homework out
- no more day-dreaming in class
- O levels is just ahead
- time ZOOMS like a rocket
- stress is coming your way

hah isn't it interesting to compare like that.
in bio must draw table de worr.

i'm glad i think i finished all my homework. (:
now it's studying for chem.
i think it's best to memorise the chapter of metals now.
like the reactivity with HCl blahblahblah.
or else you will suffer mental diarrhoea and have a hard time memorising the stuff like you did on EOY chem.

hah you date with your aiai i date with my aiai.
but then you have more time for your aiai.
no more O levels for your aiai.
me and my aiai still have. hahah.
(:

hah my mum's currently yaya-ing about the clothes she bought.
take care.

the crazier.

2006-12-22T10:45:00.000+08:00

awww didn't get to say goodbye to you.
and i only thought of sending you off like now.
i bet you're on the plane le lah.
taiwan is super cool. wahh. can see charis's guopinchao.
(:
taiwan reminds me of the days i went crazy over 5566.
5566, they died out long ago.
i guess there's so much more precious things than them now.
things like friendships and relationships.
oh my, they are so precious that you really want to hold on to them.

ohh and, you can choose to be happy even if the sky falls.
cos it's happiness, and no one can take your happiness away.
(:

all i want for christmas is you! - mariah carey

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas
Is you...

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon thefireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...
You baby

I don't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You...

All the lights are shining
SO brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells singing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need -
won't you please bring my baby to me...
Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You...
All I want for Christmas is you baby
Repeat

merry christmas my crazy!
let's crazy together this xmas!

crazier.

2006-12-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

ooh. going taiwan tomorrow! it never really did hit me that i was going taiwan until just now during dinner. i've been going around saying:yes, i'm going to taiwan on friday. uh huh. yes. this friday.
BUT. it JUST hit me that:WOW. i'm really going to TAIWAN.
geez.must be the overwhelming schedule of tuition and stuff. my brain is so clogged up that it can't process happiness anymore.

YAYE.i send out all my christmas cards! almost all! i accidentally left two at home. hope they'll be in time if i post them tomorrow.

i just hung up on panda this afternoon.so freaking pissed. always force me to do things to piss panda off. geez.okay. i wasn't really pissed. i was just. frustrated. cos we're always getting into arguements, okay. smalls tiffs rather. but we just can't stop talking on the phone. dammit. i NEED to come up with a resolution.

i hope the panda will stop bullying me by this christmas.

this holiday doesn't seem like a holiday. all i seem to be getting is another 2 hours of sleep. or else. it's the same busy schedule again. gosh. it's back to the ironic contridicting fact: i want to go back to school cos i can't wait to see everyone! BUT. the desire of wanting the hols to extend is much stronger. dammit. i don't want to go back to that freaky place to face all the old foggies, back to the mundane, anti-social lifestyle, where life is basically made up of school and work. what kinda childhood is that man.

and if you're asking me about my childhood. all i can remember is that i spend my upper primary school years mugging like nobody's business.

singaporean kids are SO DEPRIVED.

ciao[:
-crazy

2006-12-09T18:44:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i just don't know
what i want
what i'm thinking
where i'm exactly heading.

like my head is lost in some fog.

probably cos i think too much
and have an extreme and abstract personality.

the smallest things can make me upset
or happy.

and i infer too much from everything.

should stop being so sensitive about everything
and just live life simply.
be simple-minded and think straight.

then i'll stop messing up my already wrecked up life.

2006-12-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

OMG. how can there be SUCH A PERSON EXISITING ON EARTH? i'm so HIGHLY AMUSED by the nonsensical rating that i can give h**. GOSH. omg lah. i'm so FREAKING ANNOYED now. that i'm venting it in everyway, on everyone i can. brother and jo has fallen to be my poor victims. GOSH.

can someone just do our society some justice and KILL HER? i'll be GRATEFUL ETERNALLY. i swear. thanks.

-crazy.

URGHHHH. *grits teeth*

2006-12-08T00:16:00.000+08:00

sometimes. insignificant is more than a word. it's a feeling. have you ever thought why i said those things? maybe cos i felt insecure about the friendship? because when i message i feel like i'm talking to the wall when i had to summond alot of courage to send that. maybe cos it's true that i feel neglected. maybe because i care...too much. that's why most of the time i feel like i'm at the rock bottom of the pirority list. maybe you tried. tried hard. but i didn't happen to see it.

2006-12-07T15:25:00.000+08:00

crazier, if you saw my message, i hope you'll reply soon. cos i'm starting to suspect if you received it at all. and uhms. sigh. i just hope everything will be fine soon.

S.H.E. 我们怎么了

落泪以前再看一眼
你模糊侧脸
这会不会是最后纪念
我凝视你而你凝视窗外的阴天
一句抱歉都僵在嘴边
我搞不懂我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后
是否
住着伤口
我想不透我们的爱
怎么了雨下过以后
是否
能让什么
复活

你的笑脸还在胸前晃动着昨天
为何回忆会让人晕血
如果我们继续向前走进雨里面
会不会有溶解的危险
我搞不懂我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后
是否
住着伤口
我想不透我们的爱怎么了
雨下过以后
是否
能让什么复活

明明从前
连真挚都很甜美
现在怎会说句话就能肿一边
我搞不懂我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后
是否
住着伤口
我想不透
我们的爱怎么了
雨下过以后
是否
能让什么复活

2006-12-06T01:15:00.000+08:00

AHHH. tennis chalet rawked! but...HAHA. it was too small, so in the end kel and jo had to stay over with 2 of the sec1s.it was a super funny sleepover cos it was decided on the last min and the sec1s couldn't sleep at all! so they wanted to keep harassing us until i made jolene usher them back to the guest room. gosh. they were freaking out at the slightest stuff! e.g. the tree outside the window and the curtains =.="

something bad happened at the chalet when the seniors stayed back, so i guess we all have to be more careful next time. hope they're okay [:

oh.and our DEAR TREASURER dropped the funds, only to find on the road of the carpark, it was a super funny process. too bad i wasn't there to witness it cos ying and i had to cab back to get the freaking bbq pit. *grunts*

watched OPEN SEASON with kel and jolene today! the movie was quite nice. ooh. aston kutcher has a sexay voice. AH HAHAHA. this sounds so wrong, but it's TRUE! xDD thank goodness it was better than over the hedge. that was like the first movie ever which caused me to fall asleep in the cinema[okay.maybe i shouldn't push all the blame onto the movie, although it's partly responsible. i was drained frm X country.]then shopped around before going home.

OOOH. i bought this book which teaches DIY accessory making frm TOKYO JULIET. it's super cool. i'm gonna make a pair of earrings myself and see how it looks like.

-sometimes we just have to be a robot to put a stop to that pain.forgetting it takes time.but the wound will heal one day.

live life to the fullest.
carpe diem.

PS:
to theFORGOTTEN-
thanks[: yes, when things go wrong, we have to move on, but sometimes, i can't help but sigh at those regrets. i guess we all have regrets in life. except i try to minimize them to the minimal.

2006-12-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

i'm like super bored now so i decided to do this quiz i found on friendster!
credits to xiping! cos it's some bulletin she posted there. haha. so let's see how many crazy things i did outta 125.

Level 1
() smoked a cigarette
() smoked a cigar
() done weed
() kissed a member of the same sex
(x) drank alcohol
total:1

Level 2
(x) bitched about someone else?
( ) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
total:1

Level 3
( ) snuck out of a parent's house
(x) had a crush on someone?
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone out on a blind date
total:1

Level 4
( ) had a crush on a younger person?
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen something die
(x) literally kicked someone's ass
total:2

Level 5
(x) had/have a crush on one of yourclassmates
(x) been to China
(x) been to Spain
( ) been to Iceland
( ) thrown out for drinking
total:3

Level 6
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone through friendster
(x) been called an as*****
(x) lied?
total:3

Level 7
( ) been in an abusive relationship
( ) taken pain killers
(-) love/like someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watchedcloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow angel
total:1

Level 8
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
total:5

Level 9
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
total:4

Level 10
( ) used a fake/someone else's ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake
total:1

Level 11
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed/vandalize
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
( ) pet a reindeer
total:3

Level 12
(x) won a contest
( ) been suspended from school
( ) had detention
(x) been in a car/motorcycle accident
total:2

Level 13
( ) had/have braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream inone night
(x) had a headache
(x) swam at night
total:2

Level 14
(x) ever had someone gone on your nerves?
( ) witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with something(objects nothumans)
total:4

Level 15
( ) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost `all the time
( ) been to the opposite side of theworld
(x) swam in the sea
(x)felt like you were dying
total:3

Level 16
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently coloured withcrayons/coloredpencils/markers
(x)paid for a meal with only coins
total:4

Level 17
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) kissed in the rain
total:3

Level 18
( ) written a letter to Santa Clause
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun set
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
total: 3

Level 19
(x) crashed a party
( ) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) had a wish come true
( )Humped a monkey
total:2

Level 20
(x) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed "penis" at a footballgame.
( ) swimming with dolphins
total:1

Level 21
(x) got your tongue stuck to apole/freezer/ice cube
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sex clothes
total:2

Level 22
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) can do a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than3 hours
(x) stayed up all night
total:3

Level 23
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
( ) climbed a tree
( ) aren't scared to watch scarymovies alone
(x)been at a freezing cold place?
(x)ate a blueberry pie?
total:2

Level 25
(x) believe in ghosts
(x) have/had more then 10 pairs ofshoes
( ) gone streaking
( ) been in jail
total:2

count the total and repost with: i did 58 out of 125 crazy things.

omg. which proves the i'm crazy? but the quiz appeals to be to be more of lame than crazy :x
gosh.uhms. so i guess i beat xiping's record of 49?i hoped i counted correctly cos i've always seem to have this problem with numbers.OH WELLS.

2006-12-03T23:05:00.000+08:00

haha! thankew!! *MWACKS* for changing the blogskin!
heh. you know and i know. that i'm just too lazy!
i seriously wanted to change it *sticks up three fingers* SWEAR!
i did want. but urms. WANT. and did. kinda. contrasts. HAHAH.
the devil in me won the angel...
MY COUSIN GAVE BIRTH THIS MORNING! omgomg.
i'm gonna post the pic of my LOVELY niece in the next post.
simply too...[EHEM.] lazy to load the pics up the com.
cos the bluetooth device is really troublesome and you crazy partner here isn't exactly what you would call com savvy.

hmmm.free next monday? i should be okay on anyday that i'm free too(:
lemme know kaes.

OH. AND TENNIS MIGHT BE HAVING A CAMP WITH DANCE!! WHOOOO!! YEH!

learnt to take things in my stride.
the long-time wound has surfaced again. i thought by ignoring it, maybe it'll heal into a scar.
but i guess it didn't. and all i did was to leave it alone, and i realised if i didn't let it heal, it's going to rot and eat into me someday.
and i'll be letting down all the people that cares. *smiles*
it's no use letting something that has passed to defeat you again since there's simply nothing you can do about it, why not learn from your mistakes and not commit it again.
but how many can actually attain the level of the politcally correct answer?
maybe not me.
but the least i can do is to stop dwelling over the past and wallowing in self-pity.
MOVE ON with life.
i bet there are so much more things out there in life worth my life.
than some useless person who will never turn back.

我很坚强！！！

this is getting incoherent. never mind. just some random rantings.
you know...people will get crazy if they don't vent their frustrations out on way or another.

oh.i'm already crazy. so OH WELL. HEH.

2006-12-02T18:24:00.000+08:00

YOYOYO!

it's been long since i'm here hurr.
but anyway i've changed the blogskin, because the old one's image is spoilt i think.
took super long to change this okay!
so the next time you better change it, or else i slaughter you!
mwahaha!

anyway, we haven't been going out this holiday!
ask me out then. :D
i'll be glad to attend the date provided that i'm free.
hah!

anyway take care okay!
cos we're crazies. (:

crazier.

2006-11-22T23:46:00.000+08:00

放不下 - 龚诗嘉

你好吗
你的夜是不是跟我的一样漫长
是不是
还把我给你的爱好好戴在手上
要坚强
我常常对着镜子里的人大声讲
虽然说孤独的想一个人好像一种惩罚
msn上太多的路人甲
偶尔你也该上来说说话

想着你的温柔
想着你的模样
我放不下
都说过了再见我们各自飞翔
各自长大
抱紧爱会挣扎
放开爱会心慌
神也很忙
到底要实现哪个愿望
离开你那麽傻可以后侮吗

风很大
怕你又穿得太少会让自己着凉
我很棒
一个人换了灯泡房间变得很亮
每一天
发生的事情我都好想要跟你讲
爱很怪
什麽都介意最后又什麽都原谅

ooh心里最深的牵挂
越想遗忘越不能忘

2006-11-20T22:50:00.000+08:00

maybe i got my message across the wrong way.
cos i didn't mean it that way.
and i never suspected that the stuff were copy and paste. that was the last thing on my mind.
harm has been done. so all i can say is i'm sorry.

probably i never expected this say to come to. maybe my line just snapped because i'm too overwhelmed by everything. i don't know.

-crazy

2006-11-17T21:50:00.000+08:00

i want you to know that it doesn't mean that when i don't show it that i care for you and love you, means i don't bother about you.

you know i still can rmbr that day after 2I chalet, when i suddenly walk up towards you, you said "you have chief then abandon me le." and today you said "ohh i thought you have chief enough le." how hurtful can that be?

if i didn't bother about you, i wouldn't have even bothered to reply your posts by posting paragraphs and paragraphs of inspirational notes. if you didn't know, it was typed out, not copy and paste. and i wouldn't have even asked you about study dates for your amaths revision.

i admit i do neglect you sometimes.

i don't know what to say. i never knew this day would come.

crazier.

2006-11-14T14:27:00.000+08:00

光鲜亮丽的外表往往只是为了遮掩内心的丑陋。

我大概是这种人吧。

若没有朋友的点醒，我大概永远不会知道自己的恶劣。

力不从心的借口。也累了。

sorry to all those whom i'm flared up to today. especially my tennis team mates. i really didn't mean it. i'm just frustrated at myself for not being able to help. and no matter how much we try, everything seems to return back to square one. esp. sorry to jo and kel. thanks for being tolerant with my nonsense. when i always think that all is lost, thanks for being there to at least make me feel that there's hope. that sometimes when i need to grumble, there's someone to share.

thanks.

staf.

2006-11-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

well since you like your pearl to be buried, then let it be.
i dont like forcing people to do something they dont like.
anyway, it's still the same thing, YOUR choice.
i can jolly well tell you i hate using reverse psychology.

2006-11-11T13:23:00.000+08:00

maybe i just want my pearl to be buried forever. avoiding is the behaviour of a weakling.
however, some things are better if left alone. not thinking. not doing. beacause you might screwed it up even more.

although you can chose what to think, what to believe, what to do. but the surroundings environment is always the crucial influencing factor to that decision, the one you make. althought you can always claim that it is your decision, but thinking deeper, is it always yours? or sometimes, it is the unknown circumstances that forces you to make that painful, forceful decision?

maybe all is lost because i'm too tired to carry on.

-crazy

2006-11-11T12:14:00.000+08:00

Achievement is a brilliant contribution to self-worth!

Setting goals and applying determination and hard work are the routes to getting things accomplished. Wehn you've set a goal and achieved it, the message that you send to yourself is that you are a 'can do' person. Self efficacy-the "I-am-a-capaple-and-competent-person" statement- is a powerful building block for creating positive self-esteem. Self-esteem- the image you hold of yourself- is an important reflection, because just about everything you say and do stems from this picture. The good news is tahtyou have a say in this self-portrait- because the paintbrush is in your hands. Don't forget to add the "colour" of achievement when you're painting a picture of yourself! Ask yourself, "in what ways am I a 'can-do' person?"

you find the pearl yourself, afterall it's your pearl, and only you have the ability to find it yourself. You are the one who decides whether you have the strength to carry on doing something. No one can force you to do something that you don't want to do. Afterall, it's your choice.

Choices are something we have to make everyday, every minute, every moment. Simply coming online to chat is a choice made. Blogging right now here is also a choice made. "Go, pause, think, go" familiar? Everyday we make choices. We decide what's right and what's wrong. Your nervous system is only connected within your body, no one can control what you do, no one can control how you think. Life is about making choices. If you think you can find your pearl, if you think you want to find your pearl, you can definitely find it. Because whenever God takes things from us, He would definitely keep something for you.

YOU, decide it for yourself.
be it you have the strength or not, you decide it for yourself.

crazier.

2006-11-09T22:57:00.000+08:00

it is agreed that we must not dwell solely on our pain, however whenever you try to find that renewed courage within, you'll often find youself lost in the journey.
the journey of searching for that courage. the lost sheep of the herd.
the courage is always there but sometimes we just simply fail to see it.

sometimes it's not because of courage you fail to move on. it is just the fact that you no longer
have strength to carry on when faith, hope and wisdom is all lost.

maybe i just need to find that pearl.

did anyone happen to see mine?

-crazy

2006-11-09T22:30:00.000+08:00

Consider how a beautiful pearl is the outcome of an intrusion (such as a grain of sand) within the oyster's shell. Likewise, the intrusion of disappointment, heartache or a particularly difficult time can transform a person into an illustrious soul.

Inevitably each of us will face times of sadness, sorrow or challenge in our lives- whether in the form of heartbreak, disappointment, humiliation, loss or other struggles. But we must celebrate the challenge as an opportunity to gain strength from its lesson and not dwell solely on the source of our pain, What the process of the development of a pearl teaches us is that suffering can be transformed into the pearl of renewed courage, hope, endurance, wisdom, faith or love. Each is a testimony of the majesty of the heart and soul to use sad times to deepen into life- to more fully appreciate our own resilience. Trust that you can learn something even in the challenge- and look for the pearl you have gained.

the crazier.

2006-11-08T11:21:00.000+08:00

you dont emo ah, cannot emo lah. if you emo then no one come zi-high with me le.
did we take any photos in class chalet? if you have you upload!
and i got in SYF(: yay finally a dream came true(:
hah i realised our way of doing work is different, thus quite difficult to organise things together. yet chalet was rather successful, thanks to us us us(:
stop screaming and whining ah!

cos everyone has their first times.
and if we dont try out, we'll never have a first time.

what one man can dream, many others will achieve.

crazier

2006-11-01T13:52:00.000+08:00

suppose to be feeling super shitty today.
but surprisingly i'm not.
perhaps the influence isn't so big after all.
i guess i'm just reading too much into it.
maybe the prospects of working cheers me up.

i LOVE my shifu(mentor) and the company!
everyone's like a big family. this work attachment rawks.
i wish we could just stay here forever.
i bet we'll be very sad on the last day.

thank goodness for the job.
or i'll be at home wallowing in depression.
being busy helps keep things off the mind.
i wish i could just erase all those bad memories.
then i'll be a machine.

2006-10-29T13:48:00.000+08:00

just finished lunch and training.
OH MAN. my foot hurts like nuts now cos of the two blisters that "POPPED" up after training.
halfway through training.i thought i was GONNA DIE.
this coach.MAD ONE.
i think he thinks we're machines.
but it was crappy training for me today. cos i was busy focusing on my footwork to notice my strokes so everything turned out shitty in the end.
whacked at least 300balls. surfed 40. and did like a total of 50volleys and smashes[which wasn't alot.and thank goodness too.cos the way i was smashing the balls was just embarassing myself.really need to work on that component.]

went blog hopping.
everyone is scaring my with the 'must-get-A1-for-chinese-tomorrow-or-i-will-die' sorta thing.
and i'm being like some YAYA PAPAYA here.
for once i'm being SO SLACK for an exam.not to mention that it's a SUPER MAJOR one too.
this is bad. VERY BAD.
i need to be STRESSED. oh no. i never really pia. and i see everyone pia-ing their heads off.
they're frightening me.
WHAT IF I DON'T GET A1 TOMORROW? HOW?HOW?HOW?
OH man.

2006-10-25T22:51:00.000+08:00

the blog says:your light will shine when all else fades.
then where is my light?
they always say that god will always leave a window for you when he shuts all the doors.
but towards me, i guess he decided that the window was too much for me as well.
probably cos ICE AGE arrived that's why all my sunlight is gone.
trying not to make the blog an emo one.
i bet huiyi will scold me again.

but today.really.feeling very down.

人到了最伤心处，竟然是流不出一滴泪来。我想。我大概就是这样吧。

突然间心里空空的。很多人可能会说身在福中不知福。也许就是因为太幸福了，所以变成温室里的小草-经不起风吹雨打。心灵受不起伤害。

就是那种想太多的人才会庸人自扰。

i just feel kinda 魂不守舍 these few days. maybe cos i got pissed off at someone for no rhyme or reason then got really irritated at myself, and i get a cold war. then the world starts crashing down.

this kinda people really wuliao right?nothing to do, create problems for themselves only.but i guess we're all humans and everyone has their weakness. and mine happens to be always letting emotions get the better of me. someone just caught my weakness and THUMP. everything crashed.

i don't know what i want. but i hope i'll get it sorted out soon. cos i don't like to doubt myself. this is bugging me.

-CRAZY

2006-10-23T12:40:00.000+08:00

aiyo.
i thought what crazier posted. o.0
then she somehow made me pia to come and read it...
i thought something like 9/11 happened.
xiaojie arhhh....i'm speechless.

OHHHH! I'M SO HAPPY! WE GOT A NEW BLOGSKINNN! YAYE-NESS!

thankew crazier! *mwacks* heh heh.
don't worry. i don't have disease, so my saliva doesn't contain some H5N3 virus. :D

i'm gonna change the password after i blog. i'm CONVINCED blogger doesn't like me cos i SERIOUSLY tried the same thing you[crazier] told me to and it SIMPLY didn't work?

i think i'm irritating pixy.HA!she send me this pic of this small girl and ask if i think she's cute. and i'm going on all about how I'M cuter. HAHAHA.
oh. i got on her nerves.ha.

anyway. i screwed up EOYs. thought i'll mention something about it since i've been MIA-ing so long. but i'm actually quite numb about it. cos i didn't put in as much effort which i ought to and i'm quite heck care about it now. so yeh. all i have to face are my tutors reprimands and TA-DA.

super sian sian about everything this year. no mood to pia. no motivation to pia, to phrase it correctly. i guess i'll be on "confinement" next year cos i don't really plan to go out unneccessarily after march.yepyep.

have 101things to do.esp. for tennis.
1. CCA tee
2. tournament attaire
3.Best Prac day
4.CCA leaders camp
5.Sec4 farewell +gifts
6.CCA webpg
7. tennis dec camp.

8.2I chalet!! [YAYE]

actually what's most on my mind now is sec4 chalet and the gifts. my brain are really outta ideas and i don't wanna disappoint the seniors, i'm a drying corpse here. outta brain juices. yepyep. if anyone has any zai3 suggestions, PLS. PLS. come and tell me. thankew [:

2006-10-23T11:05:00.000+08:00

hey wanna go out wanna go out?
i miss kbox's set lunch):

the crazier.

2006-10-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

i found out that you're the one that's lousy! haha(x
to think you cant rmbr the username and pw.
feel like smacking you now! -hits staf's butt-
you disappoint me! -sniffs loudly-
better go log in again and find out what's wrong!

the crazier (x

2006-09-02T19:29:00.000+08:00

sorry for not blogging recently.
had been busy for test, open house, and mr sng's father's wake.
ytd was totally horrible when i was out for 16hours.
holidays are here again and i haven't yet pick up the pen that i use for hwk.
yucks i hate sept holidays.
and my birthday's coming(x
yay i love birthdays.
so tired):
yay my birthday's coming.

take care crazy(:

2006-08-29T19:36:00.000+08:00

感情线 - 183 Club

我想我已开始有点疑惑好像被他说中些什么
难道已经没有别的选择只能乖乖的束手就策
难过的是我们做了选择是对是错谁也没把握
如果要我放手才能获得为何在我心中有舍不得

看着你要走还装着笑容掩饰的脆弱要撑多久
如果现在开口如何挽留感情这条线注定只能这么远

不敢相信已经来到终点想你爱他必定多一些
我们之间不可能再回到从前我还傻傻画着幸福线
看着你走远还继续装笑脸掩饰折磨我能撑多久
如果现在开口怎么挽留感情这条线注定无法延长一点

你已不在而我何时才清醒相信一切都是命
不曾放弃你我不会说什么默默的承受像个男子汉

看着你要走[看着看着你要走]
还装着笑容[多么多么笑容]
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久[还要撑多久]
如果现在开口[现在开口] 如何挽留[如何挽留]
感情这条线注定只能这么远　

看着你要走[woo～]
还装着笑容[We will carry on]
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久[knowing there were words I've never said baby]
如果现在开口[现在开口]
如何挽留[如何挽留]感情这条线
注定只能这么远[Let the words remain unsaid]

如果现在开口如何挽留?

2006-08-25T00:49:00.000+08:00

i must be nuts to be posting twice in an hour. but i just saw something.

i can recall vaguely this conversation i've heard before:

A: it takes two to maintain a freindship, just as how it takes two to clap

B:C really does care about it. but have u ever tried making an effort try salvage the situation?

A was stumped at the question. she felt guilty. she thought it was her fault. but today. i can tell A that she no longer needs to be stumped because it's over. No matter how much effort is put in to salvage the friendship, if both have drifted apart, mean it has drifted apart.
even if u try to minimise the distance between the two parties, the gap will be there forever.

besides, A is tired of salvaging friendships.

~~A has been hurt too many times and the pain should just stop.let the torture end.~~

if C wants it to end this way, then C has gotten the perfect ending. without A, C's picture is perfect.

A+B+C= -A+B+C

2006-08-25T00:19:00.000+08:00

for once. i'm really at my wits end.

pressed for time.

need to sleep.

coming down with every single illness u can think of.

today was a bad day. I had screwed up training cos couldn't do the C-swing properly.
argh. so freaking frustrated at myself.it's bugging me.
coach gave an inspiring talk. haha. okay. probably it isn't something u'll call inspiring.
but i guess he noticed something. and i hope he sends his message clear and right across to the people who ought he thinks should be receiving it.
zoning out. haha. something he said.
have 101 things on my list to complete.
so many things, so little time. URGH. i sound like some stupid propaganda commercial for the Olsen twins' series.
but coming to think of it, it's true isn't it?
sec 3 has been a totally social life deprived year. and if this yr is already turning out this way, can u imagine next year?
UH. my brain cells tells me not to think. it'll probably just deter me from going to school.
the only thing which keeps me going now is that i have training to look forward at least at the end of the day. where u can whack stuff to release stress.
uh. ~~need anger mangement.~~ more like stress mangement.

Big bro is right. i shall stop getting stressed over every single nitty gritty thing. it'll send me ZOOMING into IMH before i even know it. suppose to meet BB tomorrow. but so freaking busy and tired.

HAIS. i shall go for training at tanglin tomorrow then. relieve stress.

WAIT.

I SHALL STOP USING THE WORD STRESS.

cos. i've realised. that it sounds more like an excuse than. anything.

2006-08-20T16:52:00.000+08:00

ahhh. sorry luh! haha. the whole sino programme knows i'm abusive, jamie practically aviods me like an emminent epidemic once she sees that i'm going on a "pinching-spree". HEH HEH.
you're just another unfortunately vicitm XD
hey. u whacked me too okay. HAHA.
left me with permanent PHOBIA.
HA.
YUSIN.
_____ ARHHH.
nvm.
crazier and i shall get you...NEXT TIME!
MUHAHAHA.

i guess we're all going through a rough patch this year.
with the changing of classes, we lost much and gained many.
or for some, it maybe vice versa.
for some reason.
this year seems to be one which i have lost much of my tears to.
again. I have screwed up another friendship.
it's probably be.
somehow.
probably god just feels that i don't deserve to have that many good friends.
or maybe the previous 14 years of my life have passed to smoothly,
someone out there decided to make this year one so painful that i'll never forget.
the sacrfices made to get something which i wanted so much seems unoworthy now,
for i'll never get back what i've lost.
for that screwed friendship, all i wanted to say is that:
if you don't give a damn. then i don't too okay.
i've really had enough. and if you think this is the way you wanted it to end.
then so be it.
i've always thought that we knew each other well.
maybe i was wrong. or maybe right out from the start, you already schemed to get something out of me.
i don't blame you.
for this is what i call the realistic world.

this seems to be a depressing blog.
i'm sorry to add to the sadness.
but there are some things which i need to get off my back.

take care, crazier.

i just hope the world can give me a break.

2006-08-19T13:10:00.000+08:00

here's a quote i want to share with you.
'Many of people's failures were not knowing how close they are to success when they gave up.'
-Thomas Edison

See, failing your chem test everytime doesn't mean that you would definitely fail the next one. or rather did badly. i just did a remedial worksheet on chem. and i found out my chem is really cham. so we shall mug together! mentally physically. haha. come on! dont be discouraged!

i've been very stressed up these few days. then mr sng had a dialogue session with me. he kept me crying for half of the dialogue session. and he says i'm going to dialogue with him again on friday. make me sound like a problematic kid. ):

yah it's just two more weeks to end of school! we will survive the ordeal together. and then i'll hit you a thousand times to make up for my loss XD

take care my crazy!
crazier with loads of crazy love(:

2006-08-10T09:38:00.000+08:00

you meanie!
#@!#$&!(%$&#(!%)!@%*)@!#% (x
leave a permanent scar on me i'll murder you ah!
muahahahaha!
so mean, you know pinch people very pain de leh.
so you pinch me one time, i will hit you a lot of times.
HAHAHA [:
i feel like smacking you now.

thecrazier,
see who's crazier?

2006-08-05T09:18:00.000+08:00

BOO!
i miss going out with you):
haha one day throw your buddy aside! XD
don't be stressed up about your work.
you can ask me! i know i'm good in maths(x
haha then i'll squeeze your chemistry juices out too!
if you need me i know you will feel free to call me(:
haha i'm just a phonecall away rmbr?
not too far too if you want to come find me!
you can go tanah merah mrt, take mrt to pasir ris, then take 89!

love the crazier.

2006-07-28T22:10:00.000+08:00

HAHA. I just thought of the stupid superman quote: with greater power comes greater responsibilities.
i use to think that it was so cliche and dumb.
but i think it's really true.
superly drained out from everything and i seem to be pissing everyone out with my AP.
can u believe it. for once in my entire life, i'm starting to suspect if i have attitude problem.
Edna Mode is really getting on me.
i feel like a failure.
getting insulted infront of the whole class yet i cannot defend myself.
all i felt i wanted to do was to cry.
it seems that no matter how hard i try to do everything to the best of my ability, i seem to be wrecking everything up.
My CCA. studies. and the list goes on.
for once. i think i have a really screwed wrecked up life.
depressed.
once again. I'm back to sqaure one where i start to suspect if all the effort i put in for everything is ever worth it.
I'm starting to wonder about my cun2 zai4 jia4 zhi2 again.
about what do i actually want?
i'm feeling lost all over again and i hate this feeling.
i hate it when i doubt myself. and my goals.
sometimes i ask. is it true that i can't take failure?
probably, i've always been living in comfort zone, so much so that i've never really treasured things which i've ought to be paying more attention to.
CCA.
i feel as though i've failed everyone.
i can't garner the respect of the team.
i can't even make my PEERS turn up for training.
i'm just depressed luh.
need to vent out some stuff.
probably i just need to cry. then i'll be fine.
i need some sort of route to vent it all out.
or i'll land in the doc's office soon man.
or worst still. like crazier said. i'll go kee-siao.
aiyo. darn scary lah.
i don't wanna go see councillor man.
like mental breakdown like that.
haix.
someone. pls help.

2006-07-27T20:32:00.000+08:00

If one day you feel like crying,
Call me.
I don’t promise I’ll make you laugh,
But I can cry with you.
If one day you want to run away
Don’t be afraid to call me.
I don’t promise to ask you to stop,
But can run with you.
If one day you don’t want to listen to anyone,
Call me.
I promise to be there for you,
And I promise to be very quiet.
But if one day you call,
And there’s no answer.
Come fast to me,
Perhaps I need you.

i didn't know my dear crazy is in amaths remedial. must come ask me for help okay! i will help crazy, or else she would take my place as the crazier cos she turns kee-siao(: hahaha oops.

upload the picture we took during RHD leh. you slow pig. even tortoise also walk faster than you run hurr. must use the ma bian to bian you! then will you move faster! haha your buddy coming already right! must introduce her to me okay! or else i use two ma bians on you! *evil laughters*

btw i'm getting busier next wk i think. NDP rehearsals. extra practice for the sec3s. mtp skit rehearsals. emaths chem test. oh no haven study yet): but my heart will still be with you(:

when you feel lost, don't worry.
you're just in my heart(:

love, the crazier(:

2006-07-18T19:25:00.000+08:00

dear crazy,

today isn't a very nice day lah hurr.
i think you get what i mean too. dont wish to talk about it anymore. since things are already over.
btw dont say my biology like nvr study!
and hah kusu island! nvr ask the 3 chiefs of kusu island! it's quincy me and liukun! ltr dont let you go then you know ah! hahahaha! btw it's really a temple and a place that was supposed to be shops or openair mini hawker centre, but it's blank lah hurr.

yah we are zi-highs! dont get affected too easily.
haha actually i think we do(: we get zi-highed by each other easily!

haha okay good luck for amaths and my ss geo(:

love, the crazier.

2006-07-18T18:12:00.000+08:00

crazier:
haix.
i was so deep in thought just now that i used body soap to wash my hair.
dammit.
it's still the special soap for my skin allergy.
i hope it doesn't ruin my hair.
ah. so bimbotic.
anyway, i washed my hair again(duh.) so i think it should be okay.
i had a bad day today.
now i totally understand that it doesn't mean that you're nice, people will like you.
it's impossible to please everyone in the world.
i finally recognise that fact.
it's not use being nice to someone who totally doesn't appreciate.
and irritates you back. SMACK.
irritate you right in the face.
darn annoying.
i wonder how come people can be so self-centred.
i never believed that someone could be like that cos i always thought there's this bit of good in everyone and only if you treat that person nicely, that person well treat you well back.
well. it happens that the world doesn't work this way anymore.
people who are INCONSIDERATE.
Pls.
WAKE UP NOW.
what i can tell you. YOU BUNCH of inconsiderate people.
Losers.
The world can jolly well do without you.
so if you're not busy being so self-centred.
GET A LIFE.
dammit.
i'm in a super super not nice mood today.
haix.
cos i know that i'm gonna fail A maths tomorrow and EDNA MODE is gonna flash me that idiotic look again.
ARGHHH.
and i'm going to kusu island, which according to kelly, has only a temple.
and the people in the temple practically OWN the island.
cos no one else lives there.
how creepy.

over and out!
<3 crazy

2006-07-15T22:33:00.000+08:00

dear crazier,
don't be sad okay! I believe we've gotten things all sorted out already, so don't dwell on it okay!
The thing has passed already, so don't worry and be HAPPY! Crazier should be high! Don't be sad kaes, or i'll feel sad too (:
sings: i'll be here for youuu....
hahaha.
i hate the old monster.
she's driving me nuts can.
bet her boyfriend ditched her, so she's taking it out on us.
i'm just gonna tell everyone that and announce it everytime i have a chance.
i think she's the worst person on earth.
she makes my life miserable.
bleahx.
i hate her.
crazy is super tired today cos i had 3hr marathon tuition again.
never mind!
we can talk on the phone to destress!
don't do sodaku or whatever that thing is already luh!
very kusu leh.
i don't wanna go kusu island. i get sea-sick!
so malu if i puke all over the place.
eh. crazier doesn't reply sms-es.
she got drowned in the shower. HEE HEE.

okay! out and over.
<3, crazy

2006-07-07T19:19:00.000+08:00

dear crazy,
the crazier is very very sad today.
cos someone actuallly asked her to do sth,
which she had long ago wished for.
but in the end someone asked her friend to do it instead.
crazier wants to do this very very much.
she just don't want to spoil someone's reputation.
POUTS>
crazier is no longer that crazy anymore.
she's sad):

2006-07-01T20:47:00.000+08:00

it's ME the crazier!
hahaha.
it's the start of the crazy and the crazier blog(:
they go zi-highing themselves.
you dont understand their language.
(: